I am no one.

I am non-existent.

I live only in your dreams, perhaps.  Or in your nightmares, if you’d prefer.

 

I don’t exist.

I’m used to being non-existent anyway.

Just a quick update before I move my arse off to the hotel in the morning.

I got my hands on a Samsung Galaxy Note 4!  Whee~  Charcoal black!  I know I love pink but I can’t really imagine myself using a pink Note, to be honest.  I’m not that girly.  =x  Besides, pink is not available at launch anyway.  So black it is!  Love the classic black. <3

Came back from work today and rushed to help mom and dad finished off covering the entire house in plastic, taping the sides, etc.  Only managed to shower and sit down in front of the PC and fan and hope my hair dries in time before I wake up super early to finish up the rest of covering and last min packing in a few hours’ time.  Felt really bad about leaving my parents here, really… But I know why my mom so insistently wants me to leave for now.  Sigh…

Well on the bright side, I’m really free for the rest of the two weeks lol.  No one questioning me where I’m going, why I’m back so late, etc etc.  =x  My weekends are booked though!  I think I’m really gonna enjoy these two weeks. ^_^

 

Things have suddenly been moving so fast, that it felt like I’m on something that moves faster than a bullet train.  I want it to slow down, so that I don’t crash and burn.  But at the same time I don’t want to slow down either.

The feeling is so peculiar, yet so familiar.

The situation makes me apprehensive, yet strangely looking forward to see what may happen.

It’s just a myriad of feelings right now.

Is it a new chapter for me?

All I know for sure, now, is that I won’t trade this for anything else in the world.  =)

 

On a side note, maybe I’ll be heading to HK next March!  Yay!

 

Almost $1.5k gone for that two weeks which I’m gonna stay in the hotel as my home will be affected by the HUP.  My mommy will be chasing me out of the house for the whole of two weeks as the house will be extremely dusty, and she didn’t want me to breathe in all the fine dust and start falling sick.

Meh…$1.5k for two weeks of freedom.  Hmmm…. doesn’t sound that bad after all?  LOL.

And then, I’ve registered my interest for SG Note 4.  That’s another $600 gone soon.

Sigh.  And then I gradually have that travelling urge now.  Why do I only get the urge to travel when I don’t have the budget for it?!  Dammnnnnn……….

And Jetstar / Scoot ain’t helping with such cheap airtickets to Bangkok in today’s promotion!!!!!  Must be that damn Murphy’s Law at work again.

 

I hate you, Murphy!! >(

 

 

伴 – 黄小琥
作词：姚若龙
作曲：于晓光、李伟菘

如果 命运可以订做
如果 有另一次选择
我想我 还是会 把手让你紧握
快乐地陪你去坎坷

就算 你有天变落魄
就算 你老得不能动
我想我 还是会 挽着你看日落
你的心疼在泪光中

嘴巴上 彼此嫌麻烦
眼神中 关怀那么满
没说爱 却早已认定一辈子的伴

在人前 从来不浪漫
在心中 却总为对方打算
最懂的人最暖的伴

就算 我以后变囉嗦
就算 我老了有病痛
我想你 还是会 照顾我到最后
隐藏脆弱不眠不休

没有辛酸 没有遗憾
什么是陪伴 什么是心安 你是答案

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Will I ever find my 伴…?

I have been a cake person since like, two years back.  I have no idea what constitutes to the sudden love for cakes, but yeah I pretty much love cream cakes now.  And that B just had to tempt me yesterday with photos of one of my favourite cake shops in SG – Pine Garden’s at AMK.  He was like, asking me to choose what flavour I would have ordered, so that he can try them and let me know if it’s nice.  I was like “B you are so evilllllllllllllll” but I still indulge him and picked a few flavours that I would have tried.  Then… he went home and ate the one which I didn’t pick, and he said he would have the others some other day.  I was almost rolling my eyes at that time but ok, never mind.  He’s always teasing me anyway.

And so.

I went to SNEC for my eye review today.  And I was supposed to meet B for lunch at Stranger’s Reunion after my appointment as he was supposed to meet a client there.  I was on my way to SNEC when we were whatsapping with each other… and he said his client is in one of the buildings in SGH.  So okay, I didn’t really go think too much about it.  He seems to have clients everywhere anyway.

And then he suddenly ask “So what if I show up and accompany you (wait), how would you feel?”

Me:  “Haha will feel weird, I’m too used to being alone when going for appointments lol”

Him: “O, haha.”

And then he appeared in front of me.  =_=  I was like “O_O”, then he passed me the cakes.  The cakes that I chose yesterday.  At that very second, I was like “B lied and tricked me!”, but then again how can I stay mad when he did that just to give me a surprise?  And with my cakes too?!  I was still pretty much stunned to say anything, and I still thought he was going to meet his client.  But wait… his clothings were too casual…

So I asked “You not meeting your client??”

Then he said, “My client is you lor.  I took leave today to accompany you.”

Awwwwwwwwww…. that’s so nice of you, B!  Thanks a lot.  :3  I was still way too stunned to say anything (this certainly never happened to me before lol) when the nurse called me to take the eye test.  And while we were waiting for my specialist to come, we started feasting on the cakes!!

 

Left: Hazelnut Chocolate Crunch Middle: Blackforest Right: Sea Salt Caramel

Verdict: Hazelnut Chocolate Crunch is not too bad.  Quite nice, I’d say.  The “crunch” comes from the Cocopops (I assume) hidden amongst the chocolate sponge~. Blackforest was a tad disappointing for me (surprisingly Prima Deli’s Blackforest is still one of the better ones I’ve tried).  Sea Salt Caramel was much love!!!  I like the salty sweet combination and that slice of swiss roll had A LOT of cream!  YUM!

B helped me with them as well as I wasn’t able to finish all of them (still need to save some space for waffles and lunch and all that!).

The eye review that came after our cake feast gave me some pretty bad news.  The old spots on my left cornea are not going away, and there are new ones showing up.  Doc didn’t wanna risk having scarring on my cornea, so she decided to put me on steroids and cyclosporin again.  For 3 months.  Sigh…

Well anyway, after I collected the eye drops, B then brought me to SR!  He ordered their most popular “Magic” coffee (Yes they really call it Magic), whereas I took the usual latte, and we shared a warm waffles with vanilla bean ice cream and some fresh fruits.  I took a couple of sips of Magic, and decided it’s slightly too bitter for my taste lol.  Their latte is all right, but I definitely preferred Jewel’s!  Their waffles is AWESOME though.  Their vanilla bean ice cream goes REALLY WELL with the waffles!  One of the best waffles I’ve had in a while!

 

“Magic” coffee!  “Let’s make love, coffee, and magic.”

My latte and the oh-so-awesome waffles!

After which, we moved on to lunch!  (I’m really gonna get so fat now!)  And it’s really healthy stuff at Raffles Place this time!  This is something which B had wanted to try ever since a fellow forum member posted about this place called Project Paleo.  You can even choose the level of salt that you want in your meal!  I picked Shrimps & Squids with mushrooms and sauteed greens as sides, and he chose Oregano Chicken with cauliflower rice and broccoli & carrots as sides.

My shrimps & Squids.  Very nice!  B helped me asked for 50% salt level, which is still pretty all right for me.  The squid rings are really fresh, and they have a natural sweetness, chewy but yet breaks when you bite.  Just really, really fresh squids. The tiger prawns are fat, juicy, and also absolutely fresh.  They are just a tad too salty for me, but still ain’t too bad.  Mushrooms are yummy (I love mushrooms anyway!), and the sauteed greens are crunchy, but not raw. They have just the right crunch to it, without being overcooked. Top notched cooking!

B’s Oregano Chicken!  His dish was ZERO salt, but the chicken was still surprisingly delightful.  Juicy, tender, and I guess it was well marinated because it was very flavourful as well, despite having no salt.  I’m not a great fan of that cauliflower rice, but the broccoli & carrots were cooked soft!!!  Dammit, if I knew they’d be soft, I’d have ordered the broccoli and carrots as sides as well!

And the overall cost isn’t too bad, though it’s definitely not something you can eat everyday coz it can get a little too heavy on the wallet.  But perhaps once a week is good?  Mine only cost $12, while his cost only $10.  And it’s really filling.  At least I felt full all the way till dinner lol.

After lunch, we went to KTV, coz I wanna sing my heart out before my overseas work trip.  God knows how long I have to stay overseas this time, so I better get my singing craving fixed before the trip.  :(  But it was my first time singing in front of B!  It was so nervewrecking and embarrassing at the same time lol.  Good thing he was looking at his phone most of the time, so I got a little more relaxed after awhile.  =X  His girl (sorry B, I know what you said about you and her, but I would still refer her as your girl lol!) came over to meet us, and she took over the singing (thankfully!) for me as I almost very nearly lost my voice, haha!  We went for dinner together (but she didn’t eat anything as she was still full from her lunch), and for the first time I witnessed the sizzling chemistry between them.  Seeing the two of them chatting back and forth, well I’d say it’s an eye opener for me!  I’ve probably never really seen any two person being SO comfortable being in each other’s presence.  What a pity that these two lovely people are not together… Despite what B kept insisting, I’m still crossing my fingers for these two.  The chemistry is really… wooh.  I felt like a lightbulb there, honestly!  XD

So well, that’s what happened today!  Thanks for the lovely surprise, B, and thanks for taking time off from work to accompany me.  I’m really glad to have a buddy like you.  ^_^

 

作词：阿信
作曲：阿信

人群中　哭着　你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦　或痛　或心动了
你已经决定了　你已经决定了

你静静　忍着　紧紧把昨天在拳心握著
而回忆越是甜　就是　越伤人了
越是在　手心留下　密密麻麻　深深浅浅的刀割

＊你不是真正的快乐　你的笑只是你穿的保护色
　你决定不恨了　也决定不爱了
　把你的灵魂　关在永远　锁上的躯壳

这世界　笑了　于是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则　不是　你的选择
于是你　含着眼泪　飘飘荡荡　跌跌撞撞的走着

Repeat ＊
你不是真正的快乐　你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧　却像隔着银河
难道就真的　抱着遗憾　一直到老了
然后才后悔著

Repeat ＊

你不是真正的快乐　你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧　却像隔着银河
难道就真的　抱着遗憾　一直到老了

你值得真正的快乐　你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什么失去了　还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让　悲伤全部　结束在此刻
重新开始活着

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每次在KTV听到朋友唱这首歌，每次看着歌词的我，都好想好想哭。这首歌就像是五月天写给我，唱给我的。

我不是真正的快乐，我的笑只是我穿的保护色。

我再也不会梦，或痛，或心动了。

我决定不狠了，也决定不爱了，把我的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳。

我不是真正的快乐，我的伤从不肯完全的愈合。

 

我真的值得快乐吗？我真的应该脱下我穿的保护色吗？

为什么我失去了，还要被惩罚呢？

我能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此刻，然后重新开始活着？

我能做到吗？

 

 

No mood to do anything!!! Argh…

I don’t even feel like going overseas for holidays.  Something must be terribly wrong with me…..

Last Sat, me and xiao didi went to JB for dinner!  We’ve been saying that we should go again some day, but there’s always some reasons to put off the trip – me being sick, him being sick, me not free, he not free, Malaysia holidays, etc etc.  So finally we manged to get going!

We ordered a large cup of sugarcane drink while waiting for our food!  It’s really huge!

 

And then there came a stray dog who stood right next to me.  I think he probably was hoping for some food, but too bad we only had our sugarcane drink!  Sorry doggie :(

 

 

Aaaaaaand, our first dish is here!  THIS is why the reason I wanna come back!  It’s like, THE BEST BBQ stingray I’ve ever eaten!!  Xdd already helped me asked for less spicy, but as you can see, it’s still pretty spicy!  But I’d brave all that fire in my mouth to eat this!  It’s seriously awesome – superb freshness, and there’s actually a lot of flesh (unlike those in SG), and all these for only RM24 (~SGD10+)!!!  Go where find, seriously?!  In SG, you have to pay minimum $8 for a super small tiny piece of BBQ stingray….

 

Then came other side dishes which we ordered~  Stir-fried dou miao (RM8) and fried egg omelette with shrimps (RM6 only!).  Both were very good too!

And the last to the parteh~~!!  CRAYFISH!!!  RM35 for 3 of them!!!  They split each crayfish into half, so I get to eat three and xdd ate 3.  The flesh was absolutely fresh! We were deciding between butter crayfish or salted egg yolk crayfish, and then we ended up with salted egg yolk version.  It was okay – but not the one that xdd was craving for. We have decided to try the butter one the next time we come!

 

Pardon the not-so-appetising stuff at the side of the plate lol.  This is just to show you how fresh it is!  The whole flesh came out just like that.  <3 <3 <3

It was really a good dinner!  Too bad we don’t go in often, but I get a very satisfied tummy each time I went in!  Huge thanks to xdd who intro this place to me and brought me there everytime. :D