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Added weather widgets too~

If you are viewing on PC, the weather widgets are at your right – I’ve placed local and upcoming trip’s destination’s weather there (for my easy reference, obviously!).

If you are viewing on mobile, it’s down at the bottom.

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Done~!

Included the countdown timer!  Tweaked the colours a little to fit the blog’s theme, overall not too bad huh!

Now I wonder if it’s a good idea to place the countdown timer because…

 

THERE’S STILL 53 DAYS TO GO!

 

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Sad cat is sad.  :(

Touching Messages – Translated

I’ll just translate some that I’m currently resonating with…

  • 我只爱对你发脾气,因为我潜意识相信你不会离开我。胡闹原来是一种依赖。(I only love throwing tantrums at you, because I believe subconsciously that you won’t leave me.  Being unreasonable, actually is a form of dependency.)
  • 有时候,露出笑脸,只是不想让你担心或难过。但其实,我没有你想象中那么坚强。(Sometimes, I smile just so that you don’t get worried or sad.  But really, I’m not as strong as you think I am.)
  • 在乎才会乱想,不在乎连想都不会想。(It’s because I care, that’s why I think too much about it.  If I don’t care, I won’t even go think about it.)
  • 不要说爱我,除非你是认真的;因为我也许会做出疯狂的事,比如——相信你。(Don’t say that you love me, unless you really mean it; because I may do something crazy, like — believing you.)
  • 如果我说我想一个人静一静,其实我比任何时候都需要你。(If I said I need some time alone, in reality this is the time that I need you most.)
  • 有时,我只是想能有个人,紧紧抱着我不放,直到我的心情真的好起来。(Sometimes, I just want to have someone to hug me tightly and won’t let go, until I’m really feeling better.)
  • 有时候不是不信任你,只是因为我比别人更在乎,更怕失去你。(Sometimes it’s not because I don’t trust you, but because more than anyone else, I care about you and more than anyone else, I’m afraid to lose you.)
  • 有一次,你说爱我。那一瞬间,我以为是永远。(There was once, you said you love me.  At that moment in time, I thought it was forever.)
  • 希望你知道我的全部缺点后,依然那么爱我,你能做到吗?(I wish that once you know all the negative sides of me, you will love me as much.  Can you do that?)
  • 最糟糕的感觉,莫过于不知道应该等待还是放弃。(The worst feeling ever, was when one don’t know whether if he/she should wait or should give up.)
  • 我希望找到一个,担心失去我的人。(I wish to find someone – someone who would actually worry about losing me.)
  • 在所有听过的谎言中,我最喜欢的是那句——我爱你。(Of all the lies I’ve heard, my favourate one would have to be “I love you”.)
  • 不必为了谁而改变,真正爱你的人会一直爱你,无论怎样的你。(There’s no need to change for anyone, because the one who really loves you will keep loving you, no matter how you are.)
  • 我知道何时止步,何时放手,何时前行。但是,我“知道”不代表我“能够”。(I know when to end, when to let go, when to move on.  But, “I know”, doesn’t mean “I can”.)
  • 世界真的很小,好像一转身,就不知道会遇见谁。世界真的很大,好像一转身,就不知道谁会消失。(The world is very small, you never know who you will bump into when you turn around.  The world is very big, feels like the moment you turn, you wouldn’t know who would disappear.)
  • 当我真正爱上了你,我发现,最终我想要的,只是你能快乐。哪怕,不是与你。(When I really fell in love with you, I realised that what I really wanted is just for you to be happy.  Even if that means you aren’t with me.)

Yeah… that’s about the ones that I’m feeling very strongly about now.  And the fact that my eyes are half closing.  But my mind is still in the overdrive..

Maybe I’ll just take the decongestant again to help me sleep…

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I’m blue, da-ber-dee-da-ber-da, da-ber-dee, da-ber-da, da-ber-dee-da-ber-da….. (infinite loop)

First foray into weights training!

So, after my first lesson of dumbbells complex workout last Saturday with Bear as my coach, I’ve decided to go ahead with my plan of trying out this workout at home, and if I can maintain the self discipline to do it every alternate day after work at home, I will cancel my gym membership with Fitness First.

And so, I started looking out for adjustable rubberised dumbbells set.  I was looking online, but couldn’t find a proper one that gives me exactly what I wanted.  And today since I was on half day and already ran my errands by 2pm, I decided to shop for them at the physical sports shops.  I went to Lian Seng (at Marina Square), and asked if they have dumbbells sets.  They do, but apparently they only have it for chrome plates.  I can’t really use chrome dumbbells because that’s really gonna kill the tiles in my room, something which my mom will definitely not be happy about.  The guy then suggest that I buy separately in that case.  They have the handle bars, and they have rubber weight plates.  But that isn’t gonna come cheap.  The bar itself cost about $27.85, and I need two.  So that’s about $56 gone.  And for the weight plates, a 1.25kg rubber plate cost $7.95…

But then the good part about this is that I can really be flexible about what weight I wanna take on.  Since now I’m still very new to this, just the bar itself is enough training for me as it weighs about 2kg each.  And it’s never really about the weight, but more of form and endurance training.  What’s the point of me buying one whole set but I won’t be touching the heavier weight plates until a year later or something?  So I decided to just buy the bars and train with them first.  So yeah, I got my “weapons”, and I bought an exercise mat from Watson’s, and I’m good to go!  The only problem is I’m still not quite sure about my form, but I’m sure Bear will correct me this Saturday.  I’m so relieved that he’s around to help me!

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Now I need to get a case for these bars and future weight plates, coz my mom is already worrying about these bars rolling and falling off the cabinets and onto her precious floor… :|

唯美情书 (Touching short messages)

Found these on the internet.  Some of them are so so so poignant. There’s bound to be more than one which you can resonate with.  I can resonate with over half of them…

I’ll do a translation at some point if I’m free.  And, for the sake of your sanity, don’t use Google Translate.

  • 我只爱对你发脾气,因为我潜意识相信你不会离开我。胡闹原来是一种依赖。
  • 我很想知道,当我的名字滑过你耳朵,你脑海中会闪现些什么?
  • 如果全世界都背叛了你,我会站在你背后背叛全世界。
  • 我最幸福的时刻,就是找对了人。你纵容我的习惯,并爱着我的一切!
  • 有一种爱,明明是深爱,却说不出来。有一种爱,明明想放手,却无法离弃。有一种爱,明知是煎熬,却又躲不开。有一种爱,明知无前路,心却早已收不回来。
  • 当我真正爱上了你,我发现,最终我想要的,只是你能快乐。哪怕,不是与你。
  • 很多时候,男人会让你觉得他爱上了你,其实他真没有;而女人会让你觉得她不可能会爱上你,结果她却动了心。
  • 很奇妙的一种感觉是,曾经的陌生人,突然之间成为了我的整个世界。
  • 如果有一天我不再烦你,如果有一天,你的生活中没有了我,没有了每天的电话,每天的留言,每天的关心,每天的小脾气。我把一切一切都表现了出来,你知道了,清楚了,了解了,最终感动了,可是我却离开了。
  • 每晚睡前听你说晚安,是属于我的,最简单而持久的幸福。
  • 喜欢记忆中,你拥抱我的温度。喜欢记忆中,你体贴的话语。喜欢记忆中,你给我依靠的肩膀。
  • 你以为,我可以什么都不在乎。其实,我也只是一个女孩,也是会偷偷地掉泪的。
  • 有时候,露出笑脸,只是不想让你担心或难过。但其实,我没有你想象中那么坚强。
  • 在乎才会乱想,不在乎连想都不会想。
  • 别忘了答应自己要做的事情,别忘了答应自己要去的地方,无论有多难,有多远。不要忘了,曾经对自己许下的爱的承诺。
  • 你会不会忽然的出现,在街角的咖啡店。对你说一句,只是说一句,好久不见。
  • 当你真的在乎一个人,多么微不足道的小细节,也变得重要起来。因为爱,所以在乎,因为重要,所以爱。
  • 我可以一个人唱歌,一个人喝咖啡,一个人涂鸦,一个人旅行,一个人逛大街,一个人在雨中漫步,一个人听音乐,一个人自言自语,一个人发呆,一个人跳舞,一个人看电视,一个人翻杂志… 只有爱你,是我一个人做不到的。
  • 不要说爱我,除非你是认真的;因为我也许会做出疯狂的事,比如——相信你。
  • 有时候,日夜思念。可是当思念的人出现在眼前,你却安之若素。
  • 别因为知道我会等你,就把我晾在那儿等。
  • 纵然有百万个理由离开你,我也会寻找一个理由为你留下。
  • 我曾路过你的心,不是我不想停留,而是你不肯收留。
  • 如果没有你,明天不值得期待,昨天不值得回忆。
  • 如果我说我想一个人静一静,其实我比任何时候都需要你。
  • 当我保留了你的短信,在没有人的时候悄悄回味,我就知道我已经爱上你了。
  • 有时,我只是想能有个人,紧紧抱着我不放,直到我的心情真的好起来。
  • 我所有的付出,竟然从未打动过你。
  • 有时候不是不信任你,只是因为我比别人更在乎,更怕失去你。
  • 你忍心让我孤独,看我为你受苦的原因,不是忙,不是疏忽,不是不懂,不是考验,不是暂时遗忘,不是性情孤僻… 你只是不爱我。
  • 无论我此时是如何的彷徨迷茫,最终,我都要过上自己想要的生活。
  • 幸福其实真的很简单:有人爱;有事做;有所期待。
  • 我爱你,不是因为你是一个怎样的人,而是因为我喜欢与你在一起时的感觉。
  • 我不能给你全世界,但是,我的世界,全部给你。
  • 人的一生,都有一些说不出的秘密,挽不回的遗憾,触不到的梦想,忘不了的爱。
  • 假如你爱上了两个人,选择第二个。因为如果你真爱第一个,就不会去爱其他人。
  • 真的好想跟你讲话,但又很怕你嫌我烦。
  • 你是我晚上睡觉前最想聊天的人,我爱这种感觉。
  • 我们总在最不懂爱情的年代,遇见最美好的爱情。
  • 你会不断的遇见一些人,也会不停的和一些人说再见,从陌生到熟悉,从熟悉再回陌生,从臭味相投到分道扬镳,从相见恨晚到不如不见
  • 总有那么一个地方,一个人,让你心动,留恋不已。总有那么一个人,一句对不起,让你心痛,刻骨铭心…
  • 有一次,你说爱我。那一瞬间,我以为是永远。
  • 世界上最动听的情话,不是“我爱你”,不是“在一起”,是在我最脆弱的时候,你说:“有我在!”
  • 世界上最残忍的事,不是没遇到爱的人,而是遇到却最终错过;世界上最伤心的事,不是你爱的人不爱你,而是他爱过你后,最后却不爱你。
  • 其实,我一直都在你身后,就差你一个回头。
  • 曾经我是一个任性的孩子,任性的以为你只属于我,我只属于你。谢谢你告诉我,这个世界上谁都不是谁的,我们终究只会,属于我们自己。
  • 有时候,最好的安慰,就是无言的陪伴。
  • 思念一个人,不必天天见,不必互相拥有或相互毁灭,不是朝思暮想,而是一天总想起他几次。听不到他的声音时,会担心他;一个人在外地时,会想念和他一起的时光。
  • 一个人最幸福的时刻,就是找对了人,他纵容你的习惯,并爱着你的一切!
  • 这么多年,这么多人经过我的生活,可是为什么偏偏是你,看起来好像最应该是过客的你,在我心中占据了这么重的地位。
  • 有没有试过回过头去看你跟一个人的聊天记录,从一开始到现在。看着看着就笑了,笑着笑着就哭了。一个人,从陌生走近你,然后再陌生。
  • 我怀念的不是哪个人,而是我那回不去的曾经,突然很想跟自己说声对不起,对不起再也找不回原来的自己了。
  • 你爱我,我会陪你;你不爱我,我给你自由。这就是傻傻的我,那个在乎你的我。
  • 希望你知道我的全部缺点后,依然那么爱我,你能做到吗?
  • 我所做的一切,我努力改变自己,都是为了你。
  • 那个让你流泪的,是你最爱的人;那个懂你眼泪的,是最爱你的人。那个为你擦干眼泪的,才是最后和你相守的人。
  • 其实一个人的时候真的很自由,无拘无束,随心所欲。只是一个人久了,都不知道自己到底要的是什么了,不是没有人追,也不是不想爱。只是不习惯去过两个人的生活,或许还是因为没有遇到那个可以让我心动的人——也许,
  • 我的固执,注定了我要单身很久很久。
  • 我不过就是爱上了你,所以比你卑微,比你渺小,被你轻视,被你瞧不起,被你不珍惜。
  • 我的世界,你不在乎;你的世界,我被驱逐… 我真的喜欢你,闭上眼,以为我能忘记,但流下的眼泪,却没有骗到自己。
  • 你是我猜不到的不知所措,我是你想不到的无关痛痒。因为你,我认真过,改变过,悲伤过… 我不想再为过去而挣扎,我不想再为思念而牵挂,我不想再卑微自己了。你若不惜,我亦不爱。
  • 主动久了会很累,在乎久了会崩溃!
  • 爱上某个人,不是因为他给了你需要的东西,而是因为他给了你从未有过的感觉。
  • 有没有这么一个人,你无数次说着要放弃,但终究还是舍不得。
  • 遇见你,是我一生最美丽的意外。我不知道该说什么,我只是突然在这一刻很想你。
  • 最糟糕的感觉,莫过于不知道应该等待还是放弃。
  • 其实全世界最幸福的童话,不过是,与你一起度过柴米油盐的岁月。
  • 我希望找到一个,担心失去我的人。
  • 如果有一天,你走进我的心里,你会哭,因为里面全是你。如果有一天,我走进你心里,我也会哭,因为那里沒有我。
  • 我不需要那个人有多完美,我只需要那个人能让我感觉到,我就是唯一。
  • 在所有听过的谎言中,我最喜欢的是那句——我爱你。
  • 世界上最令人激动的一件事情是,你原本以为没有机会靠近的人,竟然爱上了你。
  • 我并不失落,我也没有受伤,没有生气,我只是有点累了,我厌倦了付出太多,回报太少。
  • 不必为了谁而改变,真正爱你的人会一直爱你,无论怎样的你。
  • 多年后你会不会记得,有一个女孩很努力的珍惜过你。
  • 有时候,我只是需要一个可以说话的人。
  • 与其找错误的人相伴,不如选择单身。
  • 我的世界不允许你的消失,不管结局是否完美。
  • 我知道何时止步,何时放手,何时前行。但是,我“知道”不代表我“能够”。
  • 我不明白为什么命运要让两个不可能在一起的人相遇。
  • 每一次想你,我都得提醒自己,如果你想和我聊天的话,你早就开口了。
  • 你不知道某些时刻,我有多么难过。你不知道,没有回应的等待,真的让人很累。你不知道,我是鼓起了多大的勇气,才敢念念不忘。又或者,你不是不知道,只是假装不知道。你那么自私。我那么傻。
  • 有时候,虽然能想明白,但心里就是接受不了。
  • 不要把我的关心当成理所当然。不管我有多爱你,最终也会有疲惫的一天。
  • 最难受的思念,不是对方不知道你的思念,而是他知道却无所谓有些人,无论你怎么对他好,他也不会留意,因为他的生命里,你显得是多么的微不足道。
  • 你永远也不晓得自己有多喜欢一个人,除非你看见他和别的人在一起。
  • 世界真的很小,好像一转身,就不知道会遇见谁。世界真的很大,好像一转身,就不知道谁会消失。
  • 从某天起,好像跟你没那么好了,见面少了,电话也少了;孤单的时候,忍住没找你。有些话不知道从何说起,不如不说;有些秘密只能藏在心底,独自承担。不想对你说谎,更害怕你痛心的责备,于是只好假装忘了你。其实,你一直在我心里。
  • 我讨厌你很长一段时间都忽略我,然后又突然开始和我说话,好像什么事情也没有发生过一样。
  • 感谢你赠我一场空欢喜,我们有过的美好回忆,让泪水染得模糊不清了。偶尔想起,记忆犹新,就像当初,我爱你,没有什么目的,只是爱你。
  • 当我想你的时候,你会不会也刚好正在想我。

Will there be?

如果全世界都背叛了你,我会站在你背后背叛全世界。

Will there ever be someone doing this for me…?

This drawing just touches something in me and makes me sad, because I know that’ll never happen… (maybe because the people around me are just too practical and reasonable, lol).

姚贝娜逝世

I was shocked.  More than shocked.  I didn’t know she was a cancer survivor.  Hence after 中国好声音2, I never really followed the contestants and I didn’t know that her cancer came back.

She’s born in 1981, and that makes her the same age as me.  Her cancer cells have spread to her lungs and even her brain… I can’t imagine the pain that she had went through.

Well, at least her time at Heavens will be painless… She had also signed a consent form to donate her cornea after she dies.  This is a girl with big dreams, and even a bigger heart… =(

I’ll leave you with her awesome audition at 中国好声音2… 姚贝娜, you will be missed… Rest in peace.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hKC3Jm5QqiU

5 years down the road

Wow.

I was browsing through the old comments, when I found an old gaming friend commenting on one of my blog entries which I had almost forgotten about.

The blog entry is here:  A Random Mix  (Fourth paragraph onwards)

I really had forgotten about this conversation until now, when I re-read it again.  It has been, what, 5.5 years after I posted that?  And I’m still here in this company, working with the same bunch of people.  And yes I’m still myself, being as efficient/capable as before and not pretending to be dumb or stupid.

No, I don’t mince my words or act humble when it comes to work.  I know my strengths as well as weakness.  I don’t pretend to be all “no la I where got so good” when I know I am good.  And yes, this is still pissing the rest of my colleagues off, but hey, I don’t care how they think of me now.  I’ve been doing my work just fine, and well, they can try to backstab me if they want to, but they can’t do anything to me when it comes to work.  My shields are always solid, up and ready, even against people in my own department. I know my work inside out, something which I daresay they don’t.  They’ve no idea what they are doing – they are only following what I do, copying my templates.  Heck, they even need to take my emails and use them as templates when they are sending formal emails out to suppliers or to other departments.  So unless they can reach or catch up to my level of understanding and consistency at work, they can try all they want to badmouth / backstab me, and I’m still immune to it.

I didn’t survive in this company/position for 11 years out of luck or due to strings being pulled, you know. ;)

11 years in this company, in this department, and I’ve found out that there’s no true friendship between colleagues in the same department.  They are all friendly towards each other on the surface, always gossip with each other during lunch, but if one day someone in that group is absent, you’ll find the entire group gossiping negative stuff about the one who isn’t there.  Such hypocrisy.  I’m so glad I wasn’t part of it.

So yes, I’m still sticking around, going about in my own merry way, getting things done before deadlines, settling in this small, warm, cosy corner where the shelf partition hides me from plain view.

Working life isn’t that bad after all, sometimes.  :mrgreen:

Coffee, Tea or Me?

Brewing my loose green tea leaves in the “tea-for-one” infuser mug that my dearest Bear got for me for Christmas last year.  I’m now a convert when it comes to tea – no more tea sachets for me.  Loose tea definitely taste better and fresher.  I’ve also bought loose peppermint tea leaves for my daily consumption every night – now waiting for iHerb to deliver it to me.

I’ve also been cutting down on coffee… I think my IBS will worsen whenever I take milk.  If I take coffee every afternoon, my tummy will just growl all the way till night.  Ugh… is this a sign of my body getting old?  =(  Now it’s just approximately one cup of coffee per day, and that’s in the morning.  I’d take a second cup in the afternoon at times when I really couldn’t fight the drowsiness, but I’d avoid if I can.  Sigh.  When will this dumb IBS go away… :(

Yesterday I was contemplating whether to cancel my gym membership, and just buy a pair of dumbbells to workout.  $150 per month is actually quite a significant amount – S$1,800 per year.  And since I only get $600 subsidy from company every year, that amounts to S$1,200 out of my own pocket for every year for Fitness First. Now, that’s a lot of money.  I just don’t know if I would have the self discipline to work out at home… :???: