2023年快乐！~
本来打算撑到凌晨00:00后在Instagram祝哲彧新年快乐，我还在想该做什么来撑呢，毕竟我好久都没能为了过某节日而顺利熬夜了。结果他竟然在十一点左右就上线跟我聊天了。聊了好多~ 一直聊到12点正！我也完全都没睡意，真的谢谢他陪我跨年！我们还约好了，以后就一直每年都一起跨年~！至少直到他和他老婆复合或他找到新欢吧，哈哈…
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告别
终于，花了点时间，从2022读到2009的entries了。
以前用英文写，而且写好多，好长。我都挺诧异的，我英文有这么好吗？哈哈。
唉，真的是“想当年”啊！我，应该变了好多吧。变cynical了，变实际了。很多东西都不再那么执着了，好多事也都看破了。
这样也好。当你把所有事情都看透后，心境也会好起来，连脾气都会好很多。
跟以前的自己告个别吧：谢谢你曾经是个浪漫主义者，所以你勇敢过，努力过。虽然到最后偏题鳞伤，但也谢谢你最终愿意把所有都放下，才有了现在的我。
虽然已是独自一人，但你我都还是能好好的。你曾经想去的地方，想做的事，放心，我一定有朝一日会去到，会做到。毕竟我们是一体的嘛！
加油！这是为现在的我说的。:D
郭奇林 （郭麒麟）
聪明，有文化，有礼貌，情商高，人缘好，幽默，可爱。
这样的一个人，谁不爱？
反正我是爱了。
2022 – Happy New Year
Time flies.
It’s another brand new year.
Here’s hoping it’ll be a better year for all of us.
Time to change the layout of the blog… I’m still a huge fan of 周深, but not that super crazy anymore. Still listening to his songs everyday though… :) I’m not 100% sure but I think I won’t get tired of his voice anytime soon…
Almost a year…
It was September 2019 when I last updated this blog.
Never found any motivation to update it ever since.
Went on a Hokkaido trip with my Mom and Bruno in Oct’2019, got delayed when coming back due to a typhoon, slept over at Narita Airport, and then chaos ensued after I came back – didn’t really have time to write anything at all.
Some stuff that had happened:-
- I’ve kinda clarified things with Bruno – We will be only good friends, and probably met up like once a month or something. I can’t see him as a life partner (even though it’ll be non-romantic relationship) at all.
- Covid-19 happened. Everyone knows about this, there’s nothing much to say. I’m just glad I have been wearing a mask on public transport since I came back from Japan last year. Not gonna change this habit any time soon.
- Cancelled our Taiwan trip which was supposed to happen in March 2020. Was pretty sad about it but it was also a relief at the same time. It was kinda stressful to travel with my cousins…
- Don’t foresee any travelling anytime soon due to 1) Oracle project at work; 2) well, Covid-19.
- Singapore went into semi-lockdown mode called Circuit Breaker in end March, and lasted till 2nd June. We had to work from home for about 2 months – and it was during this time I got closer (slightly – on my end only I suppose) with Japheth, someone whom I’ve never even talk to when we were in office previously. I suppose I should thank IMOS?
- Now I’m back in office everyday, even though the work that I’m doing can be done at home. Oh well.
Talking about Japheth… all I can say is he’s really a nice person. He isn’t good looking, but he has a very positive personality. I didn’t know I cared about him until one day while WFH, I heard his voice being very different over a video call. It was almost like he was soul-less, and sounded so tired. I still did not talk to him much at that time, but I decided to just send him a private message on Teams to see if he’s okay and if he’s tired. His simple reply: “Yeah, tired.”
I supposed he was totally bogged down by IMOS issues, and literally everyone in office was calling him and asking him to help with IMOS (well I was one of them). It was kinda alarming to hear that such a positive young man suddenly sounding so depressed. I immediately reached out to his lunch kaki whom I was on closer terms with to alert him about this, and told him to let Japheth’s manager know that he’s being overwhelmed. One thing led to another, and I think his manager did reached out to him to make sure he’s okay. A day later he sounded better – thank goodness.
Slowly though, I started to chat more with him and slowly opened up to him. He was a great person to talk to and to confide in, even though he doesn’t talk that much to me. So most of the time it was a one-way street haha. It’s awesome that he’s got a very cute girlfriend though – hope they’ll get married soon! They both look so cute together. =)
Got him a Tiramisu on his birthday last Thursday 2nd July. I don’t think he ended up eating it though… or maybe it wasn’t that nice. Didn’t hear any feedback from him… LOL.
Oh well, I suppose there’s just a limit of how friendly I should be. I’ve done my best and if he’s not interested in striking a friendship outside of work, then I guess I shall not insist.
Went for Restaurant Week lunch with Bruno yesterday at Wooloomooloo Steakhouse again. Impeccable service, lovely complimentary warm salty bread, perfectly done steak, and to-die-for bread and butter pudding as dessert. The meal was so good! Wish I had it with a romantic partner though. But at the rate things are going, and at how I deal with relationship issues… I suppose I’ll just be alone till the end of time. Which I am okay with. Just sometimes, I fantasize otherwise, you know? Heh…
So, I’ve got a new bag
Mhm. I actually went ahead and got myself the Tom Bihn Synapse 25 which I was eyeing for some time.
First impressions: The bag is gonna last a LONG time. The ballistic nylon feels so tough! The YYK zips are not extremely smooth but they feel huge and super durable. The chipped left strap buckle brushed against my inner arm, but that’s gonna resolved soon as Tom Bihn had already sent a replacement bag over and it’s on it’s way here. Weight wise, it was a little heavy to carry on my hand, but when I carried the backpack on my back, initially it felt heavy but I noticed that no matter how much stuff I throw inside, the burden my shoulders felt actually was somewhat the same, which kinda baffled me. I’ll try more when my replacement bag comes. The back panel isn’t as breatheable as I expected it to be, but after loosening the straps (lengthening them) a little, there’s actually some room for my back to breathe and it was better.
I think I’ll do a more detailed review after a few months of using the bag to see how things go.
Dreamt about my dad
Last night I dreamt about my dad again. I’ve been dreaming about him quite frequently these few nights… but last night was quite different.
It felt almost real. Everyone at home had already went to sleep. I was the last one, and before I step into my room, I heard the door opened and Dad step into the house, like how he did when he worked night shift the last time. I remembered looking at him in shock, wondering why was he back, why could he still appear in front of me in flesh. He still jokingly asked me why did I keep looking at him.
I reached out to touch him and found that I could feel him. Suddenly I just started crying, very hard, non stop, while grabbing his arm. I didn’t cry in real life as I dreamt, but I cried very hard in the dream. (Usually if I cry in the dream, I would be crying IRL too.)
Can’t remember much of the dream after that. It did continue, but I don’t remember the details.
Although I had somewhat gotten used to him not being around us anymore, I realised 我还是很想他…
I want a new bag!
As above title.
I’m looking at Tom Bihn Synapse 25 bag – but holy cow it’s expensive. However, considering it’s gonna last a lifetime, perhaps I shouldn’t hesitate too much about it…
Browsing around the site, I’ve set my sights on:-
- Tom Bihn Synapse 25 – USD210
- Laptop cache – USD45
- Key Straps 3x – USD15 (One for my keys, one for the organizational wallet, and one for… spare?)
- Clear organizational wallet – USD17 (For the random cards that I have with me… at least they’ll be easily accessible when attached to one of the many o-rings in the bag!)
- Shipping charges – USD45
That’s a whopping USD332, which roughly converts to about SGD451. Bleh.
Guess I’ll get it when either my Outgear or Bobby XD bag fails me…
Meh
Can’t get the “year” in the post date working despite spending 3 hours trying to look through all the CSS sheets… Am I missing something somewhere?
Small Update
Nothing much happened for the first three months of 2019.
I’ve got a small promotion at work (assistant manager now, wut?), preparing a trip to Hokkaido with mommy and Bruno (airtickets bought), went on a 4D Taipei trip with mommy and my aunt and cousins.
Still trying to not think of death and my dad too much.