No More Updates

There won’t be any more blog entries since I’m now writing daily diary entries on my iPad Mini 6.

Still thinking what I should do with this blog page…

I’ll be keeping this domain up for sure, since my travel journal is still hosted here, but I’m just not sure what I could put here on the main site.

It’s been a while…

… since I last blogged.

Like, really blog about my life.

Ever since I bought an iPad Mini 6 in April, I’ve started the habit of writing short diary entry on a daily basis in iOS’ Notes app.

That probably caused me to stop writing blog entries here – because, well, most of the stuff have already been written down, except that they are now in another place. And I wonder if I actually should pay for Apple’s cloud storage, just to store my daily entries…

But then again, I’ve paid for this domain, I’ve paid for the web hosting… I need to think what I can use this site for, if not for blogging or writing my thoughts down.

Travel blog? I have a sub-domain for that.

Photography gallery? I’m not professional enough to have a portfolio. My photos are stored in Flickr Pro and Google Photos already anyway.

Ecommerce? I’m not selling anything.

Publish my writings / novels? But… I don’t want to make them public. They are too personal…

So am I gonna waste this sanity-asylum.net domain?

Damn I need to start thinking…

跟自己说的话

最近刷到的,很喜欢:

有缘不会走,无缘留不住。感受不到爱意的时候,我会全身而退,大大方方走出来,毕竟释怀是每个人必修的课。把自己还给自己,把你还给你。

主动结束我们的关系以后,我会恢复我原来独立自由,快乐充实的样子。撇下依赖,把与你联系的方式都删了,手机会越来越安静,而相册里积压的美好越来越多时,我知道这是真正的我又活过来了。虽然我一定依然会想起你,偶尔一定也会非常伤心,毕竟心动多么难得,但我运气不太好,你不是那个能陪我走完的人,你也不是我该动心的人。感谢你陪了我这一段路。你权衡利弊,我及时止损。如果你开心的话,忘了我也没关系。

我大大方方为自己的心动买单,也为自己不知深浅的喜欢道歉。若有下次,希望能让我运气好一点,碰到对的人,可以吗?

Happy New Year!

2023年快乐!~

本来打算撑到凌晨00:00后在Instagram祝哲彧新年快乐,我还在想该做什么来撑呢,毕竟我好久都没能为了过某节日而顺利熬夜了。结果他竟然在十一点左右就上线跟我聊天了。聊了好多~ 一直聊到12点正!我也完全都没睡意,真的谢谢他陪我跨年!我们还约好了,以后就一直每年都一起跨年~!至少直到他和他老婆复合或他找到新欢吧,哈哈…

告别

终于,花了点时间,从2022读到2009的entries了。

以前用英文写,而且写好多,好长。我都挺诧异的,我英文有这么好吗?哈哈。

唉,真的是“想当年”啊!我,应该变了好多吧。变cynical了,变实际了。很多东西都不再那么执着了,好多事也都看破了。

这样也好。当你把所有事情都看透后,心境也会好起来,连脾气都会好很多。

跟以前的自己告个别吧:谢谢你曾经是个浪漫主义者,所以你勇敢过,努力过。虽然到最后偏题鳞伤,但也谢谢你最终愿意把所有都放下,才有了现在的我。

虽然已是独自一人,但你我都还是能好好的。你曾经想去的地方,想做的事,放心,我一定有朝一日会去到,会做到。毕竟我们是一体的嘛!

加油!这是为现在的我说的。:D

2022 – Happy New Year

Time flies.

It’s another brand new year.

Here’s hoping it’ll be a better year for all of us.

Time to change the layout of the blog… I’m still a huge fan of 周深, but not that super crazy anymore. Still listening to his songs everyday though… :) I’m not 100% sure but I think I won’t get tired of his voice anytime soon…

Almost a year…

It was September 2019 when I last updated this blog.

Never found any motivation to update it ever since.

Went on a Hokkaido trip with my Mom and Bruno in Oct’2019, got delayed when coming back due to a typhoon, slept over at Narita Airport, and then chaos ensued after I came back – didn’t really have time to write anything at all.

Some stuff that had happened:-

  • I’ve kinda clarified things with Bruno – We will be only good friends, and probably met up like once a month or something. I can’t see him as a life partner (even though it’ll be non-romantic relationship) at all.
  • Covid-19 happened. Everyone knows about this, there’s nothing much to say. I’m just glad I have been wearing a mask on public transport since I came back from Japan last year. Not gonna change this habit any time soon.
  • Cancelled our Taiwan trip which was supposed to happen in March 2020. Was pretty sad about it but it was also a relief at the same time. It was kinda stressful to travel with my cousins…
  • Don’t foresee any travelling anytime soon due to 1) Oracle project at work; 2) well, Covid-19.
  • Singapore went into semi-lockdown mode called Circuit Breaker in end March, and lasted till 2nd June. We had to work from home for about 2 months – and it was during this time I got closer (slightly – on my end only I suppose) with Japheth, someone whom I’ve never even talk to when we were in office previously. I suppose I should thank IMOS?
  • Now I’m back in office everyday, even though the work that I’m doing can be done at home. Oh well.

Talking about Japheth… all I can say is he’s really a nice person. He isn’t good looking, but he has a very positive personality. I didn’t know I cared about him until one day while WFH, I heard his voice being very different over a video call. It was almost like he was soul-less, and sounded so tired. I still did not talk to him much at that time, but I decided to just send him a private message on Teams to see if he’s okay and if he’s tired. His simple reply: “Yeah, tired.”

I supposed he was totally bogged down by IMOS issues, and literally everyone in office was calling him and asking him to help with IMOS (well I was one of them). It was kinda alarming to hear that such a positive young man suddenly sounding so depressed. I immediately reached out to his lunch kaki whom I was on closer terms with to alert him about this, and told him to let Japheth’s manager know that he’s being overwhelmed. One thing led to another, and I think his manager did reached out to him to make sure he’s okay. A day later he sounded better – thank goodness.

Slowly though, I started to chat more with him and slowly opened up to him. He was a great person to talk to and to confide in, even though he doesn’t talk that much to me. So most of the time it was a one-way street haha. It’s awesome that he’s got a very cute girlfriend though – hope they’ll get married soon! They both look so cute together. =)

Got him a Tiramisu on his birthday last Thursday 2nd July. I don’t think he ended up eating it though… or maybe it wasn’t that nice. Didn’t hear any feedback from him… LOL.

Oh well, I suppose there’s just a limit of how friendly I should be. I’ve done my best and if he’s not interested in striking a friendship outside of work, then I guess I shall not insist.

Went for Restaurant Week lunch with Bruno yesterday at Wooloomooloo Steakhouse again. Impeccable service, lovely complimentary warm salty bread, perfectly done steak, and to-die-for bread and butter pudding as dessert. The meal was so good! Wish I had it with a romantic partner though. But at the rate things are going, and at how I deal with relationship issues… I suppose I’ll just be alone till the end of time. Which I am okay with. Just sometimes, I fantasize otherwise, you know? Heh…

So, I’ve got a new bag

Mhm. I actually went ahead and got myself the Tom Bihn Synapse 25 which I was eyeing for some time.

First impressions: The bag is gonna last a LONG time. The ballistic nylon feels so tough! The YYK zips are not extremely smooth but they feel huge and super durable. The chipped left strap buckle brushed against my inner arm, but that’s gonna resolved soon as Tom Bihn had already sent a replacement bag over and it’s on it’s way here. Weight wise, it was a little heavy to carry on my hand, but when I carried the backpack on my back, initially it felt heavy but I noticed that no matter how much stuff I throw inside, the burden my shoulders felt actually was somewhat the same, which kinda baffled me. I’ll try more when my replacement bag comes. The back panel isn’t as breatheable as I expected it to be, but after loosening the straps (lengthening them) a little, there’s actually some room for my back to breathe and it was better.

I think I’ll do a more detailed review after a few months of using the bag to see how things go.

Tom Bihn Synapse 25 Nebulous Grey