The Year of Rabbit will be here in about 15 minutes time.
Lunar New Year hardly brought about any changes for me in the past, but I’m wishing this time it will. I’m desperately in need of some changes.
I need to shake off unnecessary/unhealthy relationship habits; I need to go out and enjoy myself more with the company that I enjoy; I need to open up to new experiences.
My first step? I’ve booked myself a tix to watch Black Swan tomorrow, on the first day of LNY, alone. Watching a movie alone is nothing new, but Black Swan is not the type of movie I would willingly go watch in the past. It would be the type of movie that I would be interested in the storyline, but not to watch it as a movie. For some reason, I always get sucked in too deep (emotionally) when it comes to live action movies… hence, for such storylines, I usually much prefer to read a novel than to watch a movie.
But like I said, I need to open up my mind more and experience new stuff. So yeah, I’ll be watching Black Swan. Let’s hope I won’t regret my decision. XD
I’d also made a rather large-impact decision before I actually went for the Finland trip. Those who are supposed to know about it have already knew, plus a few others whom I’ve told recently, so I don’t wish to divulge it here. I’m not sure if it’s the right decision, but let’s hope it’s at least a wise one. I think… it’s kinda necessary for now. For me, at least. I’m still having some regrets, most of them coming from the fact that… old habits die hard.
I guess I should just give myself more time to adjust and adapt to the current situation (yeah, even though I’m the one who caused the situation to be like this now). And I guess I’m just really tired. And I still am. Don’t know how long it’ll take for me to recover, recharge, re-energise… I know a lot of you are helping, and I really thank you guys and gals for being there for me. A big hug to all of you. ^^
And as for you (you know who you are), thank you for going along with this, even though I know it’s very difficult for you. Just remember that there is always a silver lining behind every cloud. :) For every thing that has happened, there’s bound to be a reason for it. Taking a step back to re-evaluate your direction in life is pretty much necessary at this point in time. The same goes for me.
Well this is the last post by me in the Year of Tiger. Good bye, Kitty-Cat – see you in 12 years time.
And hello, Rabbit! :D