And I was wondering… should I update, or should I not? After all, I don’t have the intention to do an update… so I’m writing this post with nothing concrete in my mind. I’m just wasting my time away here simply because I can’t sleep.
Well, for those of you who are waiting for an update on the Christmas/New Year Finland trip, you can stop waiting… because there is none. XD There’ll be no update, because I’m lazy to write them all down. I’m still amazed at how I was able to come up with – and finished – a mini journal detailing my first trip to Finland. I don’t think I can ever get that kind of enthusiasm again, unless I go to a new country and actually have the time to blog/update about it after the trip. Usually I have to mentally prepare myself for work the next day after touching down, and thus I will have no mood for blogging…
Chinese New Year’s coming, so I went for my annual hair-rebonding session at Kimage. Jason is such a great hairstylist, that I don’t think I’ll ever think of changing one. I’m more than comfortable with him handling my hair, and he always know what I want or do not want when it comes to hairstyle. He knows what I dare to try and what I dare not. XD So yeah, my hair is now uber straight (and a tad too short, some of my colleagues said), and I’m happy with it. :)
Work-wise… not gonna comment too much. Who knows who’s reading this now…?
Family-wise… At the moment, I’m refusing to speak with my dad. He’s been borrowing too much from me, simply because he spent all his salary gambling. Then at the end of every month, he would borrow money from me, saying that he didn’t have enough for the rest of the month, and he would pay me back after he get his salary. I don’t mind lending him if he overspent every now and then, but everytime after he got his salary, he would just go gamble and won’t be home at midnight even though he would be working morning shift (a.k.a. have to wake up at 3am to get to the bus depot) the next day. Again and again, my mom and I would called him and nagged him to come home. Again and again, he would lie to us and said he’s “on his way”, “on the bus”, “drinking coffee with friends in coffeeshop”, but hey, the background is just too goddamn quiet and echo-ey for him to be “on his way” or “in the coffeeshop”. The last straw came, when he asked his friend to lie to me as well when I asked to speak to his friend whom he claimed to be “drinking coffee” with at a coffeeshop. I’m no longer the 3-year old kid whom believed everything he said. I can detect a lie when there’s one. Just because I gave him the benefit of the doubt previously doesn’t mean I would continue to do it, especially now that he went overboard, by asking his friend to lie to me as well.
To that uncle who lied to me, thinking that I’m easy to kid, FUCK YOU. Be glad I didn’t make my way down to the depot the next day to make a ruckus out of the whole incident.
I need to stop being so easily agitated. -_- Otherwise my blood pressure’s gonna rocket sky-high again.
Okay – some nice thoughts. Reko and I just celebrated my 5th year anniversary last Friday, 22 Jan 2010. How he managed to stick with me for five years, I do not know. How did he get his superhuman patience when it comes to me… I do not know. But I do know that I’m thankful for him, for what he always does for me, for him being there and not walking away at times when others would have… and I love him. =) I know he had made a lot of sacrifices for me, for my sake… and though it’s not often that I said it to him, I really do appreciate it. And more often than not, I find myself forcing him to do things that he didn’t want to do (but still did, for my sake), and he would never force me to do what I don’t wanna do. Argh, how did this kind of man come about >_<??
This Valentines’ Day… I don’t even know what to buy for him anymore. LOL. Sometimes I feel that we were kinda like old married couples already…
Bah, does insomnia get worse the longer you stay up? Or will you eventually get tired and go sleep after awhile? I’m still wide awake… the wheel in my mind is still whirring… my eyes are not closing at all… Sigh. I don’t usually (or should I say – never) get insomnia (unless self-induced), so I can say this is the first time. The first time I can’t sleep, and I don’t know the reason. I don’t have anything on my mind… I don’t feel sad or happy or hungry or bloated… I didn’t had a lot of coffee… – just one Grande Starbucks Cafe Latte in the afternoon. I’m just not tired. Not sleepy. Ugh…
Guess I’ll switch off the PC and lie on the bed… to try and count sheep or cows or something… Don’t think it’ll help but… yeah.
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