PMS…?

I guess it’s that time of the month again…

I barely scraped through this week… Today was also the last day of Reko’s semester.  After he slogged his ass through the whole semester, I thought he had wanted to celebrate.  I even brought forward the dinner I had with my girlfriends to last evening, so that I can free myself for tonight.

Even though I was extremely tired, I was still quite excited about seeing him tonight for dinner because we hardly see each other nowadays, even on weekends.  Hence, when I sms-ed him to ask if we are having dinner together, I didn’t quite expect him to say he would be having dinner with his classmates instead…  simply because he usually wasn’t quite keen on such social activities, and he didn’t seem quite impressed with his classmates all along either.

It’s not like its their last day together as a class or anything like that, but… oh well.  I guess it’s good for him to mingle around socially… I can’t really stop him from going, anyway.

I sat in my office desk at 6pm, staring blankly at the monitor, too tired to even drag myself home, especially all the packing that we had done after lunch.  And when I finally did managed to drag myself out of the office, I felt so terribly lonely.

It’s weird, because I’m usually a loner.  I don’t mind being alone.  I didn’t mind today, either.  But the feeling was just … different.  Even when I know technically I’m not alone, I still have my parents, my sis and Reko… but I can’t really shake off the feeling that I’m alone.

I trudged my way through Citylink, wondering if I should head home.  In the end, I decided to make my way to the new shopping mall, Tampines One, instead.  I had wanted to go there since it opened, but Reko just didn’t seem keen to go with me, because he hated crowds.  So do I, but I like going to new malls just to take a look, even if they have the exact same shops as all other malls.  Since he’s enjoying himself over dinner with his classmates, I guess I could go to that new mall alone…

It wasn’t as crowded as I had expected, but the shops there were nothing different from the malls in Orchard Road, really.  I finished exploring the whole mall in about 30 minutes… after that, I just went straight home.  I didn’t really wanna spend my time at a busy place where I see couples or groups of friends together all the time.  Perhaps I was the only one alone there…

Maybe it’s just me having my monthly bout of PMS…

Just read in today’s newspapers that there’s a new kind of pills just for women who suffer from PMS.  You have to eat the pills for 24 days a month, and some women claimed that it worked, and they didn’t felt so emotional or depressed anymore.  Though, the side effects were similar to those of oral contraceptives – nausea and slight bleeding.

Wonder if I should get these pills prescribed… I don’t usually like to eat pills as a daily routine, but if this PMS is really affecting my moods and the people around me, maybe I should…