11 sleepless nights in a week.
Only slept well the night before (Wednesday), probably because my body was really too tired from the lack of sleep.
Didn’t manage to sleep enough again last night. Drifted off to sleep at about 10:30pm, woke up at around 11:50pm. Then drifted off to sleep again and in between was conscious of my movements… but I think I still somewhat kind of power-napped in between because I wasn’t aware when my dad came home from his night shift. So I guess I was asleep between 2+am to 3+am. Woke up at around 4+am (I assumed), and I resisted the urge to reach for phone to look at the time. Tossed and turned a fair bit, trying to sneak in some sleep in between to no avail. Finally, I gave up and reached for the phone at around 5.11am or so. Was already rather awake, so no point trying to go back to sleep. Browsed some forum, read up on some insomnia articles etc… and then got ready for work.
My mental state now isn’t too bad, I’m just really tired of not being able to sleep at night. I really did try to clear my mind, I’m pretty sure I wasn’t actively thinking or panicking but somehow at some point my heartbeat will accelerate and I have no idea why. It’s actually quite mentally exhausting. To the point where I’m thinking if I should quit my job and try to find something that doesn’t require me to report to work at a fixed timing.
I wish, eh…. it’s not like I’m in the creative line…
Hey Reko, you need an artist + an admin assistant or something? Wanna hire me and Bruno? XD
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