I’m so tired. Could hardly fall asleep on my own last two weeks – had to depend on Fedac to sleep. Sometimes if I’m lucky, I can fall into a deep sleep after taking Fedac, but most times I’d be drifting in and out of sleep even after Fedac. Body would be so warm at night that I would wake up even in a drug-induced sleep.
Geez, and I don’t even know what caused this. All I know is the anxiety of not being able to fall asleep is adding on to the insomnia.
I downloaded a sound app yesterday and tried to use it last night while staying off the pill. Not sure if it really helped or I’m just really too tired, but I think I did sleep a little. I still drifted in and out of sleep though – went to bed at around 9.30pm, tossed and turned in bed (my eyes were closed but my mind was rather awake as I can still hear the sounds from the app), drifted to sleep a little, but woke up fully at around 11.45pm because I was too hot, despite having the aircon turned on. I switched on the fan, and tried to go back to sleep again. I was even aware of the exact moment the sound app had stopped (I set timer to 4 hours), so I was apparently still drifting in and out of sleep at 1.30am (apparently my mind was awake then) since my sound app was supposed to end at that time. I was aware of every turn in the bed, even though my eyes were closed.
It was a restless “sleep” – if you would call that a sleep. But well, on the positive side, I didn’t take Fedac. However, after such fitful “sleep” for the past two weeks, I’m literally looking like a panda now, and generally feeling tired throughout the day.
I certainly hope the situation will improve. I have no idea why this is happening geez. I’m not stressed about anything either. Please just let me have a good sleep every night….
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