I need my holidays, dammit.
I’ve only got ONE overseas vacation this year, and it was the Taiwan trip in June. I’m feeling so burnt out at work now and I’m totally dreading the days. My boss and supervisor had been asking me “Are you all right?” and “Why are you looking so dead? Is something wrong?” during the appraisal, and I simply got no answer for them except “I’m burnt out, I think”.
I like mundane, routine work. I don’t really like things that challenge my brain. Haha. My brain CAN work if it has to. It just doesn’t like to. So it’s perfectly fine doing the work that I’m doing now. Requires a bit of brainwork here and there – but still manageable for the time being. It’s just that… I need to recharge every now and then for doing these same things over and over again.
Beginning of the month (for two weeks) – Work my ass off to do closing for the previous month.
Third and fourth week of the month – Work on the piling invoices in our e-system as well as the physical ones.
Then the cycle repeats. Day in, day out, month in, month out.
Yes like I said, I’m fine doing the routine work. BUT I NEED MY BREAKS. I NEED MY VACATIONS.
And then things got worse when one week of vacation / away from work = THOUSANDS of e-invoices in the system pending for your return. *faints* I had to lug my Alienware brick for overseas holidays as I need to clear these invoices at night WHILE vacationing. Not that I mind, but it DOES dampen the holiday mood a little. But if I don’t, it’ll dampen the holiday mood even further as there’s this nagging worry at the back of my mind that I won’t be able to clear the backlog when I get back to work.
There seems to be good news in the pipeline….
According to my colleague (who spoke to another colleague in a different department), she had been asked by my boss to concentrate fully on invoices only. I’ll have to be brutally honest here, she’s really too slow and totally couldn’t cope with what the rest of us are doing, despite her being a “senior” and working in this work scope for a year already. Heck, even our NEW colleague who came in for just about 3 months is performing way better than her. She’s totally lost in all the concepts and calculations – and it makes one wonder why is she even holding the “senior” title. Like seriously, just because the rest of us are senior too? Yeah she was senior back then in payments team, but why the hell did the company give her the same title when she transferred over to a totally NEW capacity?
OK sorry for the rant, but this is something I felt unfair since the beginning.
Anyway, according to her, she has agreed to fully take on the AP role, aka only concentrates on processing invoices. There are six of us doing the same portfolio (just that everyone has their own list of vessels to care for), and according to her, the only male colleague, the new colleague and I will be FULLY concentrating on just the vessel accounting/reporting. We will NOT need to touch invoices anymore, as they will be done by this colleague. The other two ladies will still maintain their responsibilities – doing both AP and reporting. The catch is probably the three of us will have more vessels to work on as this slow colleague’s portfolio will be given and shared among us.
I’m hoping that this will really be executed as planned, BECAUSE THAT MEANS I CAN GO ON MY HOLIDAYS WITHOUT HAVING TO LUG A LAPTOP ALONG. Although this also means that the first two weeks of the month will even be busier than ever, the downside is we’ll be slacking (like, really slacking) for the third and fourth week………..
Oh well we’ll see how this pans out to be. For now I’m just hoping this will really be happening, coz I don’t wanna go buy a laptop just to bring for work when I’m supposed to be overseas holidaying…. >_<