Well Happy New Year!
I’ve finally finished my FY2016 closing, did all the reconciliations etc… and now I finally have some free time!
I’ll probably be writing up the Japan trip journal soon (gonna take some time!), but generally the trip was cold (colder than I expected!) yet relaxing. Don’t really wanna hide anything so yeah, the person who went with me on the trip was Bruno. Nope, we are not together (you wouldn’t believe how many have been asking this). We are not sleeping together either. Okay, literally speaking, we are, considering we do share a bed now and then at staycations or holiday, but we don’t touch each other. (Believe it or not, it’s up to you. Those who know me very well will know that it’s perfectly possible.) We are really very good friends, that’s all, and we respect our friendship. After the failed r/s with Bear, I kinda realised that being very good friends don’t mean it should naturally develop into something romantic. In fact, it can kill off the friendship if the romanticism turns sour, like what happened between Bear and I. So I didn’t want that to happen between Bruno and I, hence our friendship is going to remain as it is now. He isn’t interested in a relationship either, because he felt he couldn’t contribute much to it. He is, after all, just an artist and artist positions are being exploited badly here. His salary is really rather low, and he felt it’s unfair for the girl if he couldn’t provide much for her.
Anyway, going overseas with a person makes you see the person clearer. And it also makes you see yourself clearer. In my past overseas trips, I always find myself lashing out at my travel partner – regardless who they are. I’ve always thought it’s really just my temper – and it’s better for me to travel alone. For this Japan trip, I also nearly lashed out at him once, but it didn’t develop into a full scale eruption / argument. Turns out that he knew what made me frustrated – I was too stressed about getting to a particular place within a stipulated time. I started snapping at him while I was trying to make a decision (but too flustered to make one). I threw all sorts of possibilities at him to let him know that those were my concerns, and he ended up making the decision for us. That kinda calmed me down a little, because like, FINALLY, someone is taking responsibility of making decisions, and not just relying on me. He knows I can make decisions. and he also knows that I’d like him to share some of that responsibilities too. So even though he’s not a very vocal person, he will make those decisions if I purposely throw it out to him. That’s kinda nice, you know?
I was supposed to be going to Finland, but that will have to be shelved for quite a bit because we have plans for other places. I’m still saving up bit by bit for that Finland trip though! I would love to bring Bruno to Finland too, I think he will love it there as well. And hopefully to introduce him to Reko, and let these two artists talk their hearts out. Both are passionate when it comes to what they are doing… to the point of sticking to it even though it’s not working out as nicely as they wanted it to be in life. Maybe these two can work together in some projects or something… I don’t know. One can hope! :D
I missed Finland quite a bit… and I missed Reko, his mom and his sister quite a fair bit too. Why is it always so expensive to travel to Europe? =(