Just want to say…

… Thank you for being here throughout this difficult period. Thanks for coming over to spend time with me when I couldn’t go out. Thanks for being so patient and understanding even when I snapped at you because I was frustrated about other things.

Thank you. =)

Updates

So, my dad got 2 stents in his arteries, and was discharged last Saturday.  Technically his heart is still very weak and operating at a very low efficiency, but since he’s a super laid back person, I think he’ll be fine. I hope so.

Coincidentally, after the TCM doctor changed my medicine again last Saturday, I was having trouble sleeping yet again (initially I was still able to doze a little on and off throughout the night) – I mean, I slept, but only for like 4 hours before I woke up and couldn’t sleep thereafter. Went to see her again on Tuesday to make some changes to the medication, and viola I was able to sleep now!  Or at least I have been able to sleep from 11pm to 6am at least, throughout.  And it’s deep sleep, not those dozing on and off kind.  Hopefully I don’t jinx it by talking about it here, lol.  Let’s hope I’m slowly getting back my sleep pattern.

Work is getting pretty boring – I’ve finished all my month end reporting for July, so I’m now litterally left with nothing to do.  I’ll be on leave tomorrow and Monday, so that’s a long weekend to stay at home and play POE.  Actually I’ll just probably spend the Saturday out or something alone – it’s been awhile since I have my me-time.

 

Happy Birthday Reko!

Today is the birthday of the guy whom, I can safely say, really knows me – my quirks, temperament, thinking, etc.  Always there when I needed him – always.  To the point where sometimes I wonder if I’m taking him for granted, even now as a friend.  :(

He’s someone special to me, has been, and always will be, regardless what happens.  I still wish the best for him; I still hope he will find someone who truly loves him and deserves him.  I wish I could love him the way he love(ed?) me, but… I guess life likes to make fun/play tricks on us this way.

Happy birthday Reko!  May your birthday wishes come true! =)

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好久没用中文写blog了。

以前用中文呢,是因为不想某人轻易读到我在写什么。后来就没这个必要了。那现在又为什么再用中文呢?

其实也真没什么理由。就心血来潮而已。

真的。

这一年多来,跟勇涵的友谊跨进了一大步。可是现在我也不敢说我们是情侣。只能说,我们是比要好的朋友还要好。要好到出国时可牵手,可拥抱。但我们睡在同一张床上,并没有发生任何关系。也许他很清楚我不喜欢,而且他也不在意有或没有。他倒不想也不敢,因为不想意外的当上爸爸,哈哈。在新加坡他反而不敢牵手,不敢拥抱。真奇怪,怎么我老是碰到有心理障碍的男人呢?

但老实说,他是我遇到这么多要好的男性朋友当中,最适中的一位了。做错的时候,会道歉,但不至于难过到让我感到内疚。该忍让的时候会忍让。他也不会把世界围绕着我,但依然让我觉得有安全感。他虽然不会无时无刻向我报告行踪或他在干什么,但我可以很明确的知道他在做些什么。他很踏实,也很老实。可能就是这种莫名的安全感,让我很放心。

我一直在想,如果前男友知道了会不会很伤心?本以为我和阿熊分开了,他又有机会了。怎么知道后来又来了个勇涵。可是我想,他大概也能察觉到了吧。我应该是疯了吧,竟然为了一个到目前为止一年找不到工的男人,放弃了一个有钱的外国人。有时缘分就是这么奇怪。跟勇涵在一起时就是还蛮自在的。没什么火花,没有小鹿乱撞的心跳,但就是很轻松,自在的。没压迫感,没压力。没时间陪他的时候,也不会有那种莫名其妙的内疚感 – 因为我知道他的世界不是围绕着我。他自己也有自己的事可以做。

跟他现在的状况- 就只能用“稳”一个字来形容。就希望他能早点找到一份好工作,安安稳稳的做下去。以后的事…以后再说吧。

Bored…

It’s been almost another month since I last updated this blog, and as usual, there’s nothing interesting going on at the moment.

Well, except for the fact that I’ve changed my telco operator from Starhub to Circles.Life.  So, at S$48 per month, I’m getting 23GB data.  Heh.  How nice is that?  I can stream Dota 2 matches on the go anytime I want now, without worrying about my bundled data going burst.

Well other than that…. everything’s the same.  Bored at work, bored at home.  Busy, yes, but still bored.  Got myself a small backpack for work from Taobao, to ease the load off my left shoulder coz those one-shoulder bags are just making my shoulder hurt.

Ahhh my life’s so routine and predictable that there’s absolutely nothing to write about. Oh geez.

Anyway, it’s spring!  So it’s time to change the side background again, yay!

Tribute to Heibao

Bruno had to make the hardest decision today – to euthanize Heibao due to his liver failure. I can’t even imagine how he’s feeling right now, when I’m almost tearing every minute or so here in the office every time I think about it.

One thing I’m very sure though – Heibao had lived a fulfilling life. He had the whole Sng family loving him, giving him the freedom that he needed, while taking good care of him. Every living creature has to go at one point, you and I as well. That’s why we always say – live life to the fullest. I’m sure Heibao did.

Message to Bruno: Wipe your tears, be brave and smile. And thank Heibao for coming into your life. (And mine, somewhat.) You have loved him dear and cared for him with all your heart, and I’m sure he loved you too.

Finally A Decent Update

Well Happy New Year!

I’ve finally finished my FY2016 closing, did all the reconciliations etc… and now I finally have some free time!

I’ll probably be writing up the Japan trip journal soon (gonna take some time!), but generally the trip was cold (colder than I expected!) yet relaxing.  Don’t really wanna hide anything so yeah, the person who went with me on the trip was Bruno.  Nope, we are not together (you wouldn’t believe how many have been asking this).  We are not sleeping together either.  Okay, literally speaking, we are, considering we do share a bed now and then at staycations or holiday, but we don’t touch each other.  (Believe it or not, it’s up to you.  Those who know me very well will know that it’s perfectly possible.)  We are really very good friends, that’s all, and we respect our friendship.  After the failed r/s with Bear, I kinda realised that being very good friends don’t mean it should naturally develop into something romantic.  In fact, it can kill off the friendship if the romanticism turns sour, like what happened between Bear and I.  So I didn’t want that to happen between Bruno and I, hence our friendship is going to remain as it is now.  He isn’t interested in a relationship either, because he felt he couldn’t contribute much to it.  He is, after all, just an artist and artist positions are being exploited badly here.  His salary is really rather low, and he felt it’s unfair for the girl if he couldn’t provide much for her.

Anyway, going overseas with a person makes you see the person clearer.  And it also makes you see yourself clearer.  In my past overseas trips, I always find myself lashing out at my travel partner – regardless who they are.  I’ve always thought it’s really just my temper – and it’s better for me to travel alone. For this Japan trip, I also nearly lashed out at him once, but it didn’t develop into a full scale eruption / argument.  Turns out that he knew what made me frustrated – I was too stressed about getting to a particular place within a stipulated time.  I started snapping at him while I was trying to make a decision (but too flustered to make one).  I threw all sorts of possibilities at him to let him know that those were my concerns, and he ended up making the decision for us.  That kinda calmed me down a little, because like, FINALLY, someone is taking responsibility of making decisions, and not just relying on me.  He knows I can make decisions. and he also knows that I’d like him to share some of that responsibilities too.  So even though he’s not a very vocal person, he will make those decisions if I purposely throw it out to him.  That’s kinda nice, you know?

I was supposed to be going to Finland, but that will have to be shelved for quite a bit because we have plans for other places. I’m still saving up bit by bit for that Finland trip though!  I would love to bring Bruno to Finland too, I think he will love it there as well.  And hopefully to introduce him to Reko, and let these two artists talk their hearts out.  Both are passionate when it comes to what they are doing… to the point of sticking to it even though it’s not working out as nicely as they wanted it to be in life.  Maybe these two can work together in some projects or something… I don’t know.  One can hope!  :D

I missed Finland quite a bit… and I missed Reko, his mom and his sister quite a fair bit too.  Why is it always so expensive to travel to Europe?  =(

Happy New Year!

Aaaaahh happy 2017!

Geee I am so busy lately until i haven’t been updating my blog much.  I haven’t even did ANY write up at all for the Japan trip.  Oh geez I really need to sit down and put everything aside to write that trip journal down at some point.

But for now, I’ll need to get back to my work first.  Dang why is this year so busy!  =(

Update, update!

Right!  So I haven’t really been doing much lately, to be honest.  Just playing WoW (thanks to the WoW anniversary XP buff that’s gonna end tomorrow) whenever I’m free, and listening to radio dota in the meantime.

I’ve finally spent the $200 Fraser Mall Giftcard that my insurance company gave me last year, and I used it to buy Fitbit Alta. It’s actually quite interesting, and it kinda really motivates me to walk more in order to reach the goal / milestones.  I even wore it to sleep because it’s pretty interesting the way it tracks my sleep.  It tells me how long did I sleep for, how many times did I actually wake up during the period (and I didn’t even know about it) and how many times I was restless throughout the sleep.  The bands on the Alta are interchangeable too, so I’ve bought a few more colours off from Taobao.  God knows when they will arrive, but I guess I’m not in a hurry to get them.

So yup, I’m now a proud owner of a fitness tracker!  Can strike that Charge 2 off my wishlist already, lol.

Two more weeks to Japan trip!  Suddenly the trip seems so near… Not exactly sure if that’s a good thing. =/

Meh, I should be more positive.  >_<

Birthday 2016

Happy (belated) birthday to me.  =)

Celebrated my own birthday by booking a club room at Village Hotel Albert Court, thanks to a promotion they have for their existing members.  I have stayed at their sister hotel at Village Hotel Katong before, and honestly I prefer Village Hotel Katong a little more, as it’s refurbished and renovated.  Village Hotel Albert Court is a little… hmm, dated.

The Club Room that they’ve upgraded for free for me due to it being a birthday stay, but then again we didn’t really make use of the club facilities, lol.  Bruno was kind enough to keep me company (I would have gone alone otherwise) for the three days, hence the king bed.  It’s wide enough for the two of us with plenty of space in between.  He hates body heat,  so space is necessary on the bed lol. Here’s some photo spam.

King sized bed
King sized bed
Sofa bed
Sofa bed

Huge LCD SMART TV

Yes, it’s an extremely huge room.  But if you look closely at the TV cabinet, you’d see the corners have already been chipped off.  I’m not that fussy, so I didn’t complain about it.  The toilet light was flickering throughout our stay too, but it didn’t give us any trouble, so we just leave it as well.  One issue I had with the room is that there’s no additional power outlet anywhere near the TV.  Hence, there was no way I was able to charge my laptop while leaving it connected to the TV.  Yes it’s extremely important… because I used it to watch dota matches on TV.  =(

This hotel has the same issue as the Katong branch – and that’s the blanket is way too warm. Synthetic feathers are bad, sigh.  But other than that, the bed is fine, towels are fluffy and white, and their water kettle has to be one of the cleanest and newest I’ve seen in a hotel, really.

We watched a movie on his USB stick – Alice Through The Looking Glass, before getting a late dinner on the first night at Swee Choon, a place where he never went to before.  We ordered a couple of dim sum, and were generally pretty satisfied with the food. Then we went back to the hotel and watched more dota.

Sunday was truly a relaxing day.  We did literally… nothing.  Except watching dota and movie (caught up on The Mechanic Resurrection after dinner).  We didn’t even walk too far for dinner, before going back for more dota matches.  But because our sleep quality was pretty bad (thanks to the blanket) the night before, we went to bed earlier than expected and tried to catch some wink.

It’s an uneventful day today when we checked out, except for the fact that it was pouring cats and dogs when we left the hotel.  We ended up really wet all around even though we shared an umbrella.  The rain was just too big.  And after I got home and was done washing my clothes, I’m just sitting here and trying hard not to doze off during the day.  Don’t really wanna screw up my sleeping timing….

… but now I guess it’s time to go sleep.

28 more days to Japan trip!  =)