I love you Dad.

My beloved dad, who passed away on 23rd November 2018, at 23:48 at Changi Hospital.

Sudden, but at least not much suffering, which is good for him.

Perhaps I have yet to come to terms with the loss. I cried a bit here and there. But not too much yet.

I’ll miss him for sure.

But I’ll be strong. For him, for mom, for the family, for the house, for everything that he had left behind, so that he can go on his way to rebirth peacefully.

Hope he will reincarnate into a good family, get good education and take care of his health this time!

I don’t think I’ll get to reincarnate into human again after my death (I’m not that great a person this life), so I don’t think I will be his daughter again. But I totally wouldn’t mind, even though it was infuriating in the past!

I love you, Dad. 一路好走。

Happy Birthday… To Me

Yup. Just as what the title says.

I’m gonna spend my birthday in…. Bedok Polyclinic.  Sigh.  I took this leave since January (I try not to work on my birthdays), but well, now I need to bring my dad to the polyclinic for his blood test and doctor’s appointment to check on his kidney function.

Well not that I have anything much to do at home anyway.

My Tokyo trip is in 3 days’ time! It’s just a 5.25 days trip (0.25 day because we only reach Tokyo at around 4pm, and by the time we reach the hotel it’ll already be around 6+pm, hurhur) though.  Wish it’s longer! Too bad someone didn’t have much leave days to take… *sulks*

 

Dreaming… Part 1

Watched a bit of Canada Cup last night.  Stayed up specially to watch Fujimura’s first round of games in the Pool.  Went to bed after he won his first set of games.

….. And dreamt about him for the entire night.

So weird.  It’s not like I was actively thinking about him throughout the day.  But yet for the entire night of sleep, the dream just kept continuing despite me waking up briefly in the middle of the night.  It felt… quite real.  But of course it’s just a dream (and some wishful thinking obviously) after all…

好奇怪的梦。好奇怪的感觉。

如果是真的,那该多好。。。

Already August

I can’t tell if time passes fast, or slow.

It seems fast – it’s already August now.  It was almost yesterday when we just started year 2018!

But it seems so slow…. there’s still 3 more months to my Japan trip!  Ugh……

Can’t really describe my feelings right now.

Cleared my work pretty fast this month… now I’m just waiting for my boss to pull the supplier’s aging report so that I can work on the SOA recon.  Otherwise I’m just sitting here with nothing to do, especially when there’s no emails from suppliers…

Bored out of my mind… wish I could just get home now to play my POE Incursion Flashback event.

Test post from app!

Just testing from my mobile phone… Seeing if this works?

I’ll add in a photo just for the sake of testing….yup.

My uh, collection of King’s Avatar (全职高手)! Loving this Chinese animation / web novel. Have finished reading all 1700++ chapters online, but now rereading it! And still loving it!

Update…!

So yup, as what I mentioned in my previous blog post, there had been a change in my job scope this year.  Instead of processing invoices, now invoice processing has been delegated to my supervisor, while Benson and I took over HER responsibilities.  Reason being she wasn’t able to produce the work that my boss expected from her…  She was supposed to do suppliers reconciliation every year (every month, in fact), but she refused to do it, citing time restriction/limitation as the reason.  So now, that particular duty falls to us.  On top of that, I have to also create ledger cards and maintain the counterparty system, which was something she had been doing all along as well.

So in other words, we are kio-ing her sai, yes.

Sigh.

But honestly, now that I don’t need to do daily invoice processing, my time has been freed up tremendously.  I have days where I literally has nothing to do.  Meh. I’ll see how it goes after CNY.  I have absolutely no mood to learn anything new now anyway.

My dad was warded again.  Apparently he had another silent heart attack….and this time his symptoms were worse than back in August.  I’m not sure what or how to feel about it. I think… 随缘吧。

I’ve been singing a lot at those M-Bar individual KTV booths!  A little expensive but it’s so flexible.  No need for prior booking, no need for a 2hr / 3hr block session etc.

Oh, and I’ve been playing this Travel Frog game Tabikaeru.  I love the froggy so much that I installed it on both my phones! LOL. The froggy is so cute! <3

Yeah the points are a little all over the place in this post… but I don’t really give a damn.  Not really in a mood to write much.

Happy Chinese New Year to all in advance, I guess…?

 

Happy 2018!

Obligatory post!

Happy new year!

This will be the first year where NO TRIPS are being planned beforehand.  Bruno needs to find a new job and save some money. This is also a year where there’ll be much changes at work.  I’m trying not to feel too stressed about it though.

I was thinking of perhaps going on a solo short trip to Helsinki this year end for a white Christmas, but then the airticket price is REALLY rather off-putting.  Geez.  S$1,270 for a return trip. I can get a 2 pax return airticket to Japan at that price! Yes I know Finland is halfway across the world.. but meh, spending over a thousand dollars for less than a week’s trip sounds really not-that-worth… Meh, we’ll see.

茫然

有时候会觉得,我是不是不适合谈恋爱?

好像每一次从友情走到爱情时,总会中途终结。原以为可以走的很远的,却提前止步了。

是自己的问题吗?

还是之前的,就真的不适合呢?

茫然。

不知道理由,所以茫然。

也就因为如此,我不敢真正的往下一步前进。

即使确认了彼此的感情,却始终不敢往前再踏一步。

我不敢。他也似乎不敢。

可能我们觉得现在这样就足够了。可能他还是希望就留在这段暧昧期间。

以前的我,会对现在的状况感到十分抗拒。我会担心,因为没安全感。

现在的我,难道不担心吗?老实说,担心还是会。可是,在担心的当儿,又有那么一点点的放心。

就觉得他不是那种会遇到更好就离我而去的人。

直觉吧。

很奇怪。对他的感情,好像说不上是爱。但却似乎超越了“喜欢”这两个字。

在一起的时候,没有牵手。没有脸红耳刺。没有心跳加速。更不用说什么小鹿乱撞了。

我们也没有聊不完的话题。

可是就喜欢在一起。没地方去,但还是想见彼此。

就是那么奇怪的我们。

可能我们彼此都觉得舒服吧。这种没负担的关系。这种似朋友似恋人的关系。

也不知道能这样走多久。

就。。。 走一步算一步吧。有一天,是一天。

友谊(?),万岁。

Just want to say…

… Thank you for being here throughout this difficult period. Thanks for coming over to spend time with me when I couldn’t go out. Thanks for being so patient and understanding even when I snapped at you because I was frustrated about other things.

Thank you. =)