Last night I dreamt about my dad again. I’ve been dreaming about him quite frequently these few nights… but last night was quite different.
It felt almost real. Everyone at home had already went to sleep. I was the last one, and before I step into my room, I heard the door opened and Dad step into the house, like how he did when he worked night shift the last time. I remembered looking at him in shock, wondering why was he back, why could he still appear in front of me in flesh. He still jokingly asked me why did I keep looking at him.
I reached out to touch him and found that I could feel him. Suddenly I just started crying, very hard, non stop, while grabbing his arm. I didn’t cry in real life as I dreamt, but I cried very hard in the dream. (Usually if I cry in the dream, I would be crying IRL too.)
Can’t remember much of the dream after that. It did continue, but I don’t remember the details.
Although I had somewhat gotten used to him not being around us anymore, I realised 我还是很想他…
As above title.
I’m looking at Tom Bihn Synapse 25 bag – but holy cow it’s expensive. However, considering it’s gonna last a lifetime, perhaps I shouldn’t hesitate too much about it…
Browsing around the site, I’ve set my sights on:-
That’s a whopping USD332, which roughly converts to about SGD451. Bleh.
Guess I’ll get it when either my Outgear or Bobby XD bag fails me…
Can’t get the “year” in the post date working despite spending 3 hours trying to look through all the CSS sheets… Am I missing something somewhere?
Nothing much happened for the first three months of 2019.
I’ve got a small promotion at work (assistant manager now, wut?), preparing a trip to Hokkaido with mommy and Bruno (airtickets bought), went on a 4D Taipei trip with mommy and my aunt and cousins.
Still trying to not think of death and my dad too much.
I thought I have somewhat moved on.
But I guess it wouldn’t be so easy.
I still miss my Dad. I still tear up while thinking of him.
I tried to occupy my time with other things. I tried to start updating my trip journal for the Japan trip in November. But I couldn’t. I guess the trip was too close to my Dad’s incident for comfort.
I don’t know when will I be able to update the blog for that trip.
Maybe I really should have listened to my instincts and cancel/postpone that trip…
My beloved dad, who passed away on 23rd November 2018, at 23:48 at Changi Hospital.
Sudden, but at least not much suffering, which is good for him.
Perhaps I have yet to come to terms with the loss. I cried a bit here and there. But not too much yet.
I’ll miss him for sure.
But I’ll be strong. For him, for mom, for the family, for the house, for everything that he had left behind, so that he can go on his way to rebirth peacefully.
Hope he will reincarnate into a good family, get good education and take care of his health this time!
I don’t think I’ll get to reincarnate into human again after my death (I’m not that great a person this life), so I don’t think I will be his daughter again. But I totally wouldn’t mind, even though it was infuriating in the past!
I love you, Dad. 一路好走。
Yup. Just as what the title says.
I’m gonna spend my birthday in…. Bedok Polyclinic. Sigh. I took this leave since January (I try not to work on my birthdays), but well, now I need to bring my dad to the polyclinic for his blood test and doctor’s appointment to check on his kidney function.
Well not that I have anything much to do at home anyway.
My Tokyo trip is in 3 days’ time! It’s just a 5.25 days trip (0.25 day because we only reach Tokyo at around 4pm, and by the time we reach the hotel it’ll already be around 6+pm, hurhur) though. Wish it’s longer! Too bad someone didn’t have much leave days to take… *sulks*
Watched a bit of Canada Cup last night. Stayed up specially to watch Fujimura’s first round of games in the Pool. Went to bed after he won his first set of games.
….. And dreamt about him for the entire night.
So weird. It’s not like I was actively thinking about him throughout the day. But yet for the entire night of sleep, the dream just kept continuing despite me waking up briefly in the middle of the night. It felt… quite real. But of course it’s just a dream (and some wishful thinking obviously) after all…
I can’t tell if time passes fast, or slow.
It seems fast – it’s already August now. It was almost yesterday when we just started year 2018!
But it seems so slow…. there’s still 3 more months to my Japan trip! Ugh……
Can’t really describe my feelings right now.
Cleared my work pretty fast this month… now I’m just waiting for my boss to pull the supplier’s aging report so that I can work on the SOA recon. Otherwise I’m just sitting here with nothing to do, especially when there’s no emails from suppliers…
Bored out of my mind… wish I could just get home now to play my POE Incursion Flashback event.