Dimash Kudaibergen – Best Singer EVER

So, I have to type this post out here – Dimash Kudaibergen is literally – the best – singer out there in this century, probably in the past as well as in the future.

He not only has immense talent and able to sing SIX octaves, he is ALWAYS able to put in so deep emotions in ALL his performances. I don’t know how many times I’ve cried when I listened to his live performances on Youtube.

I have said in Facebook and I’ll say it here: I want – no, I NEED to listen to him live. I want to go to his live concert at least once. This is the kind of singer that you KNOW you’ll hear different things when you go to his concerts. He can just change things up, because he CAN.

There’s SO many songs from him that I love – from the initial S.O.S (in I Am Singer 2017) to KNOW, to Samaltau (Tokyo Jazz Festival 2020), Your Love, Love Is Like A Dream, Adagio… I don’t know. I just love almost all his songs (except Uptown Funk, and I’m not a huge fan of Screaming either).

One thing though – I’m not part of his Dears fanclub. If he call ALL his fans “Dear”, then okay, I am one. But I definitely dislike his “Dears” fanclubs all over the world – I mean, they are really overzealous, especially on YouTube and Instagram. Yes, I get that you are obsessed with him (I am, too – I listen to him EVERYDAY and I don’t get tired of watching reaction videos to his performances), but you need to understand that we think he is the best singer doesn’t mean others need to think the same way. We have to respect that others have their favourite singers as well.

They spam all the YouTube reactors comment sections with the same information in almost every freaking reaction video. I mean, hold your horses, Dears. What you are doing may overwhelm reactors and they may even stop reacting to Dimash at some point because they get tired of these spam that are not even in their language.

OK now back to Dimash. What else can I say about him? He’s cute, gorgeous, handsome, funny, mischievous, cheeky, witty, emotional, sensitive, filial, humble, IMMENSELY talented (sings in 12 languages, multiinstrumentalist, composer, director of his own MVs), hardworking, yet at the same time strong, stands by his ideals (which is not easy in this world, where one succumbs to peer or society pressure easily)… can I say he’s just perfect? Please? I know there’s no perfection in the world but I think I’m seeing it in him. How is it possible that he’s all of that?

I just pity (a little) his future wife – who has to be the traditional type of wife. She has to stay at home and take care of his family while he travels around the world touring and singing. And that’s because he’s SO family oriented that he would rather leave his love behind knowing his love would take care of his family on his behalf when he’s not around. At least I think that’s what he thinks. Family, for him, will always come first.

As much as I love this guy, just this part alone will make me give up any kind of fantasies about him (hey, one can dream, even though I’m old enough to be his mom?). I can’t accept that I cannot be with my love most of the time, even though I’d love to be filial to both of our parents at the same time. And… well, he’s a Muslim. I have NOTHING against Muslims, just that… marrying one would mean I have to do fasting… erm… sorry I just can’t do fasting, I love my food too much. .__.;

I also haven’t love him enough until I would go learn Kazakhstan’s language or Russian just so I can sing along to his songs or to understand what he’s saying. However, I’ve been listening to his songs daily, non-stop (yes even when I’m at work or having meals or during commute). Maybe at some point I will… Maybe.

I love him enough though, to be willing to fly to a nearby Asian country to hear his concert once Covid-19 is over. I just hope I will be able to get the tickets…

Back to WoW?

Spent the long weekend playing World of Warcraft again – and I managed to get my Demon Hunter to max level from level 99 to level 120 in 3 days! I thought it’d be a long grind, but the levelling wasn’t too hard. Died a few times too, but I realised I’m not so averse to dying nowadays. I don’t feel the frustration of dying as much as I used to.

Demon Hunter was surprisingly fun to play and easy to sustain. Can do pretty okay-ish AOE, can self heal from talents and from Azerite powers. Not too shabby after all. There’s probably more skills that I could have used during one-on-one face-offs with rare mobs, but I guess that’s okay. I’ll learn how to use them at some point, haha.

It’s just such a long journey to get flying in Zuldazar – so long that I’m feeling a little turned off by it. I’m just doing random quests by running around even after hitting max level. Haven’t feel tired of the game yet – will just continue with it since I already sub for 6 months lol.

Almost a year…

It was September 2019 when I last updated this blog.

Never found any motivation to update it ever since.

Went on a Hokkaido trip with my Mom and Bruno in Oct’2019, got delayed when coming back due to a typhoon, slept over at Narita Airport, and then chaos ensued after I came back – didn’t really have time to write anything at all.

Some stuff that had happened:-

  • I’ve ended things with Bruno. We are merely good friends now, and probably met up like once a month or something.
  • Covid-19 happened. Everyone knows about this, there’s nothing much to say. I’m just glad I have been wearing a mask on public transport since I came back from Japan last year. Not gonna change this habit any time soon.
  • Cancelled our Taiwan trip which was supposed to happen in March 2020. Was pretty sad about it but it was also a relief at the same time. It was kinda stressful to travel with my cousins…
  • Don’t foresee any travelling anytime soon due to 1) Oracle project at work; 2) well, Covid-19.
  • Singapore went into semi-lockdown mode called Circuit Breaker in end March, and lasted till 2nd June. We had to work from home for about 2 months – and it was during this time I got closer (slightly – on my end only I suppose) with Japheth, someone whom I’ve never even talk to when we were in office previously. I suppose I should thank IMOS?
  • Now I’m back in office everyday, even though the work that I’m doing can be done at home. Oh well.

Talking about Japheth… all I can say is he’s really a nice person. He isn’t good looking, but he has a very positive personality. I didn’t know I cared about him until one day while WFH, I heard his voice being very different over a video call. It was almost like he was soul-less, and sounded so tired. I still did not talk to him much at that time, but I decided to just send him a private message on Teams to see if he’s okay and if he’s tired. His simple reply: “Yeah, tired.”

I supposed he was totally bogged down by IMOS issues, and literally everyone in office was calling him and asking him to help with IMOS (well I was one of them). It was kinda alarming to hear that such a positive young man suddenly sounding so depressed. I immediately reached out to his lunch kaki whom I was on closer terms with to alert him about this, and told him to let Japheth’s manager know that he’s being overwhelmed. One thing led to another, and I think his manager did reached out to him to make sure he’s okay. A day later he sounded better – thank goodness.

Slowly though, I started to chat more with him and slowly opened up to him. He was a great person to talk to and to confide in, even though he doesn’t talk that much to me. So most of the time it was a one-way street haha. It’s awesome that he’s got a very cute girlfriend though – hope they’ll get married soon! They both look so cute together. =)

Got him a Tiramisu on his birthday last Thursday 2nd July. I don’t think he ended up eating it though… or maybe it wasn’t that nice. Didn’t hear any feedback from him… LOL.

Oh well, I suppose there’s just a limit of how friendly I should be. I’ve done my best and if he’s not interested in striking a friendship outside of work, then I guess I shall not insist.

Went for Restaurant Week lunch with Bruno yesterday at Wooloomooloo Steakhouse again. Impeccable service, lovely complimentary warm salty bread, perfectly done steak, and to-die-for bread and butter pudding as dessert. The meal was so good! Wish I had it with a romantic partner though. But at the rate things are going, and at how I deal with relationship issues… I suppose I’ll just be alone till the end of time. Which I am okay with. Just sometimes, I fantasize otherwise, you know? Heh…

I Am Alive

为什么我不知道JJ有跟Jason Mraz 合作过啊?! 好好听!

[Verse 1 : JJ]
When I fear the sky might fall;
And no one will hear my call
I take a breath and see;
I’ve all the strength I need

Days won’t be the same;
Everything will change
Even mountains over time;
Must get redefined

[Pre-Chorus : Jason, JJ]
I know, I know – life’s worth living
I Keep on, I keep on – giving
I’m giving it all I got; Giving it my best shot

I Get up, get up – and keep on trying;
There is no shame in crying
Yesterdays are gone;
I have what it takes I have what it takes– to Hold on!

[Chorus : Jason, JJ, Both]
I am brave and strong; I am every song
I am here to shine;
And I’m not afraid to fly

I am loveable; I am invincible
I am tough enough; And I’m ready to catch
The falling skyyyy…

[Bridge]
JJ :
I am alive

Jason :
I am alive

Both :
Yes I am

[Verse 2 : Jason]
The wind is in my face; and I’m feeling out of place
It’s me against the entire human race;
I know the dreams I chase
They will not be erased; They are my saving grace
I’m gonna make it

[Pre-Chorus : JJ, Jason, Both]
I know, I know – life’s worth living
I keep on, I keep on – giving
I’m giving it all I got; Giving it my best shot

I get up, get up – and keep on trying;
There is no shame in crying
Yesterdays are gone;
I have what it takes
I have what it takes – to hold on

[Chorus : Both, Jason, JJ]
I am brave and strong; I am every song
I am here to shine; I’m not afraid to fly
I am loveable; I am invincible
And I am tough enough; And I’m ready to catch
That falling sky

I am brave and strong; I am every song
I am here to shine; I’m not afraid to fly
I am loveable;
I’m invincible
And I am tough enough; And I’m ready to catch
The falling sky

[Outro]
JJ :
I am alive

Jason :
I am alive

Both :
I am alive

Jason :
Mmm…
I am alive

JJ :
I am alive
Yes I am

那些你很冒险的梦

那些你很冒险的梦
作词:王雅君
作曲:林俊杰

当两颗心开始震动
当你瞳孔学会闪躲
当爱慢慢被遮住只剩下黑
距离像影子被拉拖

当爱的故事剩听说
我找不到你单纯的面孔
当生命每分每秒都为你转动
心多执著就加倍心痛

那些你很冒险的梦 我陪你去疯
折纸飞机 碰到雨天 终究会坠落
太残忍的话我直说 因为爱很重
你却不想懂 只往反方向走

当爱的故事剩听说
我找不到你单纯的面孔
当生命每分每秒都为你转动
心有多执著就加倍心痛

那些你很冒险的梦 我陪你去疯
折纸飞机 碰到雨天 终究会坠落
太残忍的话我直说 因为爱很重
你却不想懂 只往反方向走

我不想放手 你松开的左手
你爱的放纵 我白不回天空
我输了 累了 当你再也不回头

那些你很冒险的梦 我陪你去疯
折纸飞机 碰到雨天 终究会坠落
太残忍的话我直说 因为爱很重
你却不想懂 只往反方向走
你真的不懂 我的爱已降落

#LetsGoLiquid

Although Team Liquid has come in only at the second place at TI9, they are still the only Dota2 team I will support, as long as Kuroky, Miracle, and GH are in the team. I’m not sure if there’ll be any changes in the next season, but #LetsGoLiquid!

不适合

好累。

三年了。一直以为可以这样下去,但是我爸爸过世后,我看清了。

我们不适合。

你,明明来过我家好几次,看过我爸妈好几次。可是在我爸爸葬礼,你只待了五分钟就离开了。

我跟你当时算是比好朋友还好的阶段了,我们都已经说好即使不结婚,也是一辈子的伴了。

连我的同事都能待个三十分钟。你却。。。

从那天起,我心凉了。

三年,这三年都是我在照顾你,去哪里都好像我是姐姐似的,我安排,我决定,我带路, 我照顾。你什么都不管,只负责问 “我们去哪儿?” 其余的都是在等我策划。我们从不牵手,因为你怕被你父母亲戚朋友看到。原来我之前的猜测是对的。你只喜欢“在一起”的感觉,你要的只是那“暧昧”的感觉。你不懂得付出,只是一味的接受我对你的关怀和照顾。

是,我是一个独立的女生。但是我终究是个女生。我有时也会需要一个肩膀给我靠,需要一个人在我无助的时候帮我做决定。而这三年让我发现,你,不是那个人。

既然不是,那就不用浪费彼此的时间了吧。做个朋友,可以。不过,朋友不需要每个星期都见面吧。我真的不想那么频密的见你了。我宁愿花心思和时间在我妈和我自己身上。

这十月的北海道之旅,既然早已订了飞机票,那就算了。幸好这次我妈也跟着来。从北海道回来后,我真的,真的,不想再见到你了。你去找别人跟你暧昧吧。我没精力,也没空。

好累。

不再见

很喜欢这首歌。真的很喜欢。更喜欢李荣浩唱的部分。听了心狠狠的抽了好几下,好像被针扎了好几次。眼眶瞬间红了,好想哭。这编曲好,歌词更好。。。

不再见
作词:郭敬明 落落
作曲:李荣浩
编曲:李荣浩

离别没说再见 你是否心酸
转身寥寥笑脸 不甘的甘愿
也许下个冬天 也许还十年
再回到你身边 为你撑雨伞
剩几个夜晚 再几次晚安
等你摘下还戴上指环

原谅捧花的我盛装出席只为错过你
祈祷天灾人祸分给我只给你这香气
但我卑微奢求让我存留些许的气息
好让你在梦里能想起我曾紧抱你的 力气

以后遇见风雪 有新的雨伞
为我留的灯盏 能不能别关
不要为我伤感 别被绝望打断
不能一起的白头 也别让风雪染
再一个明天 下一世人间
等我再为你戴上指环

原谅捧花的我盛装出席却只为献礼
目送洁白纱裙路过我对他说我愿意
但我继续清扫门前的路和那段阶梯
如果你疲惫时别忘记那里还能停留 休息

原谅捧花的我盛装出席只为错过你
祈祷天灾人祸分给我只给你这香气
我想大言不惭卑微奢求来世再爱你
希望每晚星亮入梦时有人来代替我 吻你

So, I’ve got a new bag

Mhm. I actually went ahead and got myself the Tom Bihn Synapse 25 which I was eyeing for some time.

First impressions: The bag is gonna last a LONG time. The ballistic nylon feels so tough! The YYK zips are not extremely smooth but they feel huge and super durable. The chipped left strap buckle brushed against my inner arm, but that’s gonna resolved soon as Tom Bihn had already sent a replacement bag over and it’s on it’s way here. Weight wise, it was a little heavy to carry on my hand, but when I carried the backpack on my back, initially it felt heavy but I noticed that no matter how much stuff I throw inside, the burden my shoulders felt actually was somewhat the same, which kinda baffled me. I’ll try more when my replacement bag comes. The back panel isn’t as breatheable as I expected it to be, but after loosening the straps (lengthening them) a little, there’s actually some room for my back to breathe and it was better.

I think I’ll do a more detailed review after a few months of using the bag to see how things go.

Tom Bihn Synapse 25 Nebulous Grey

你好吗

墙上静止的钟是为谁停留
是不是和我一样赖著不走
你说故事已经结束 很久
我忘了 向前走

我努力假装现在过得很好
现在的你看来已不需要我
也许在不同的时空
还牵着 你的手

想知道你真的过得好吗
没有我也许是种解脱
将思念穿梭在宇宙数千光年
悄悄到 你身边

现在我试着习惯一个人过
也许你已经开始新的生活
陪着我的叫做寂寞
陪你的 是谁呢?

想知道你真的过得好吗
没有我也许是种解脱
将思念穿梭在宇宙数千光年
悄悄到 你身边

现在我试着习惯一个人过
也许你已经开始新的生活
陪着我的叫做寂寞
陪你的 是谁呢?

也许在不同的时空
还牵着 你的手