反省

今天请了假，去打疫苗第二季。

结果在外面的时候就收到一些工作方面令人气得冒烟的消息。连我在打字回给老板的时候，手都是气得抖着的。

连听着深深的歌都没办法让我冷静下来。

当然， 我回老板的语气是很不友好的。

现在过了几个钟，还是听着深深的歌声，我也慢慢的冷静下来了。（虽然那口气还是很难咽下去。）

一直在想，深深应该不希望他的粉丝们会不开心或没礼貌吧。虽然他永远都不会知道，但我还是该为了他做一个有礼貌的生米吧。

好想有个发泄口。

因为周深，我沦陷了

我太疯狂了，我。

人生40年，第一次为了一位歌手，将自己的blog’s featured image改成了他的照片。

因为他喜欢蓝色（我本人不是很喜欢蓝），也把blog的背景颜色都改成了深蓝。

看看这一次，喜欢一位歌手这事，能维持多久吧。

上次喜欢黄霄云，三个月。

林俊杰，一年。

迪玛希，一年。

周深，暂时才一个月，还能持续多久还未知。我只能说，这一个月对他的喜爱和疯狂是前几轮没感受到的。我竟然为了周深，设了微博账号，就为了关注他。还去B站也设了账号，因为要第一时间观看他今年在B站毕业典礼的演出。

我疯了吧。

周深 《玦恋》 三版

有没有人可以告诉我，世上怎会有个人可以把一首歌唱得这么好听？

有仙气，有深情，有无奈，有不舍。

即便是轻轻的哼咛，都能一下子把人带进了整首歌的氛围里。

我原先第一次坐下来听周深的歌是《茧》。当时一听就爱上了它，一首歌重复循环着。但是不知为何，现在我好像偏爱《玦恋》多一点。。。

Music has no language barrier (?)

They always say “music has no language barriers; music has no boundary”.

While I agree with that, there are just times where if you just understand what the lyrics is all about, you’ll feel the song even more.

This is probably the reason why I fell in love with 周深 a lot faster and a lot deeper than Dimash. Both of them bring me into their world with their vocals and artistry. However, I’m feeling way more connected to 周深 because I am able to understand what he’s singing, and the emotions came through even more.

I had listened to my self-created YouTube playlist for Dimash non-stop for a good period last year, and I really thought I wouldn’t be able to bring myself to listen to other singers anymore because his techniques, his artistry is just top notch. At that time, other singers seemed to pale when compared with him.

Until I sat down to listen to 周深…

Listening to 周深 non-stop makes the busy work days less stressful (I’m absolutely serious). I’m less frustrated, less temperamental while listening to his songs in the background while I work. (I get frustrated when someone calls and interrupted the songs though LOL!)

*Goes back to listening to his songs*

12.6.2021 – The Day I Became 生米

I’ve heard of 周深 many years back. I knew he had a feminine voice, but that’s all I knew. I didn’t spend time to sit down and really listen to his singing until 12th June 2021.

I was looking through those “vocal coach reactions” on YouTube, when I decided to watch one reacted to 周深, and… down the rabbit hole I went.

His voice was feminine, yes, so I wasn’t surprised. But I was so surprised by how ethereal and how angelic his voice was. My attention was straightaway being captured by his singing, whether it’s a live performance or it’s just a static picture on the YouTube video. He just brings the listener into HIS world.

A few days later, I find myself watching those variety shows with him appearing in them… he seems to be so down to earth, so caring, so funny, so.. so real. And then when he sings, he turns into this 小王子… so endearing and so attractive.

完全转生米粉了…

Dimash Kudaibergen – Best Singer EVER

So, I have to type this post out here – Dimash Kudaibergen is literally – the best – singer out there in this century, probably in the past as well as in the future.

He not only has immense talent and able to sing SIX octaves, he is ALWAYS able to put in so deep emotions in ALL his performances. I don’t know how many times I’ve cried when I listened to his live performances on Youtube.

I have said in Facebook and I’ll say it here: I want – no, I NEED to listen to him live. I want to go to his live concert at least once. This is the kind of singer that you KNOW you’ll hear different things when you go to his concerts. He can just change things up, because he CAN.

There’s SO many songs from him that I love – from the initial S.O.S (in I Am Singer 2017) to KNOW, to Samaltau (Tokyo Jazz Festival 2020), Your Love, Love Is Like A Dream, Adagio… I don’t know. I just love almost all his songs (except Uptown Funk, and I’m not a huge fan of Screaming either).

One thing though – I’m not part of his Dears fanclub. If he call ALL his fans “Dear”, then okay, I am one. But I definitely dislike his “Dears” fanclubs all over the world – I mean, they are really overzealous, especially on YouTube and Instagram. Yes, I get that you are obsessed with him (I am, too – I listen to him EVERYDAY and I don’t get tired of watching reaction videos to his performances), but you need to understand that we think he is the best singer doesn’t mean others need to think the same way. We have to respect that others have their favourite singers as well.

They spam all the YouTube reactors comment sections with the same information in almost every freaking reaction video. I mean, hold your horses, Dears. What you are doing may overwhelm reactors and they may even stop reacting to Dimash at some point because they get tired of these spam that are not even in their language.

OK now back to Dimash. What else can I say about him? He’s cute, gorgeous, handsome, funny, mischievous, cheeky, witty, emotional, sensitive, filial, humble, IMMENSELY talented (sings in 12 languages, multiinstrumentalist, composer, director of his own MVs), hardworking, yet at the same time strong, stands by his ideals (which is not easy in this world, where one succumbs to peer or society pressure easily)… can I say he’s just perfect? Please? I know there’s no perfection in the world but I think I’m seeing it in him. How is it possible that he’s all of that?

I just pity (a little) his future wife – who has to be the traditional type of wife. She has to stay at home and take care of his family while he travels around the world touring and singing. And that’s because he’s SO family oriented that he would rather leave his love behind knowing his love would take care of his family on his behalf when he’s not around. At least I think that’s what he thinks. Family, for him, will always come first.

As much as I love this guy, just this part alone will make me give up any kind of fantasies about him (hey, one can dream, even though I’m old enough to be his mom?). I can’t accept that I cannot be with my love most of the time, even though I’d love to be filial to both of our parents at the same time. And… well, he’s a Muslim. I have NOTHING against Muslims, just that… marrying one would mean I have to do fasting… erm… sorry I just can’t do fasting, I love my food too much. .__.;

I also haven’t love him enough until I would go learn Kazakhstan’s language or Russian just so I can sing along to his songs or to understand what he’s saying. However, I’ve been listening to his songs daily, non-stop (yes even when I’m at work or having meals or during commute). Maybe at some point I will… Maybe.

I love him enough though, to be willing to fly to a nearby Asian country to hear his concert once Covid-19 is over. I just hope I will be able to get the tickets…