好喜欢

怎么办?我好喜欢周深啊。好喜欢,好喜欢。喜欢他的歌声,喜欢活泼搞笑的他,喜欢有礼貌的他,喜欢静静认真唱歌的他。。。

中毒了中毒了。

有解药吗?

Music has no language barrier (?)

They always say “music has no language barriers; music has no boundary”.

While I agree with that, there are just times where if you just understand what the lyrics is all about, you’ll feel the song even more.

This is probably the reason why I fell in love with 周深 a lot faster and a lot deeper than Dimash. Both of them bring me into their world with their vocals and artistry. However, I’m feeling way more connected to 周深 because I am able to understand what he’s singing, and the emotions came through even more.

I had listened to my self-created YouTube playlist for Dimash non-stop for a good period last year, and I really thought I wouldn’t be able to bring myself to listen to other singers anymore because his techniques, his artistry is just top notch. At that time, other singers seemed to pale when compared with him.

Until I sat down to listen to 周深…

Listening to 周深 non-stop makes the busy work days less stressful (I’m absolutely serious). I’m less frustrated, less temperamental while listening to his songs in the background while I work. (I get frustrated when someone calls and interrupted the songs though LOL!)

*Goes back to listening to his songs*

12.6.2021 – The Day I Became 生米

I’ve heard of 周深 many years back. I knew he had a feminine voice, but that’s all I knew. I didn’t spend time to sit down and really listen to his singing until 12th June 2021.

I was looking through those “vocal coach reactions” on YouTube, when I decided to watch one reacted to 周深, and… down the rabbit hole I went.

His voice was feminine, yes, so I wasn’t surprised. But I was so surprised by how ethereal and how angelic his voice was. My attention was straightaway being captured by his singing, whether it’s a live performance or it’s just a static picture on the YouTube video. He just brings the listener into HIS world.

A few days later, I find myself watching those variety shows with him appearing in them… he seems to be so down to earth, so caring, so funny, so.. so real. And then when he sings, he turns into this 小王子… so endearing and so attractive.

完全转生米粉了…

Dimash Kudaibergen – Best Singer EVER

So, I have to type this post out here – Dimash Kudaibergen is literally – the best – singer out there in this century, probably in the past as well as in the future.

He not only has immense talent and able to sing SIX octaves, he is ALWAYS able to put in so deep emotions in ALL his performances. I don’t know how many times I’ve cried when I listened to his live performances on Youtube.

I have said in Facebook and I’ll say it here: I want – no, I NEED to listen to him live. I want to go to his live concert at least once. This is the kind of singer that you KNOW you’ll hear different things when you go to his concerts. He can just change things up, because he CAN.

There’s SO many songs from him that I love – from the initial S.O.S (in I Am Singer 2017) to KNOW, to Samaltau (Tokyo Jazz Festival 2020), Your Love, Love Is Like A Dream, Adagio… I don’t know. I just love almost all his songs (except Uptown Funk, and I’m not a huge fan of Screaming either).

One thing though – I’m not part of his Dears fanclub. If he call ALL his fans “Dear”, then okay, I am one. But I definitely dislike his “Dears” fanclubs all over the world – I mean, they are really overzealous, especially on YouTube and Instagram. Yes, I get that you are obsessed with him (I am, too – I listen to him EVERYDAY and I don’t get tired of watching reaction videos to his performances), but you need to understand that we think he is the best singer doesn’t mean others need to think the same way. We have to respect that others have their favourite singers as well.

They spam all the YouTube reactors comment sections with the same information in almost every freaking reaction video. I mean, hold your horses, Dears. What you are doing may overwhelm reactors and they may even stop reacting to Dimash at some point because they get tired of these spam that are not even in their language.

OK now back to Dimash. What else can I say about him? He’s cute, gorgeous, handsome, funny, mischievous, cheeky, witty, emotional, sensitive, filial, humble, IMMENSELY talented (sings in 12 languages, multiinstrumentalist, composer, director of his own MVs), hardworking, yet at the same time strong, stands by his ideals (which is not easy in this world, where one succumbs to peer or society pressure easily)… can I say he’s just perfect? Please? I know there’s no perfection in the world but I think I’m seeing it in him. How is it possible that he’s all of that?

I just pity (a little) his future wife – who has to be the traditional type of wife. She has to stay at home and take care of his family while he travels around the world touring and singing. And that’s because he’s SO family oriented that he would rather leave his love behind knowing his love would take care of his family on his behalf when he’s not around. At least I think that’s what he thinks. Family, for him, will always come first.

As much as I love this guy, just this part alone will make me give up any kind of fantasies about him (hey, one can dream, even though I’m old enough to be his mom?). I can’t accept that I cannot be with my love most of the time, even though I’d love to be filial to both of our parents at the same time. And… well, he’s a Muslim. I have NOTHING against Muslims, just that… marrying one would mean I have to do fasting… erm… sorry I just can’t do fasting, I love my food too much. .__.;

I also haven’t love him enough until I would go learn Kazakhstan’s language or Russian just so I can sing along to his songs or to understand what he’s saying. However, I’ve been listening to his songs daily, non-stop (yes even when I’m at work or having meals or during commute). Maybe at some point I will… Maybe.

I love him enough though, to be willing to fly to a nearby Asian country to hear his concert once Covid-19 is over. I just hope I will be able to get the tickets…

Back to WoW?

Spent the long weekend playing World of Warcraft again – and I managed to get my Demon Hunter to max level from level 99 to level 120 in 3 days! I thought it’d be a long grind, but the levelling wasn’t too hard. Died a few times too, but I realised I’m not so averse to dying nowadays. I don’t feel the frustration of dying as much as I used to.

Demon Hunter was surprisingly fun to play and easy to sustain. Can do pretty okay-ish AOE, can self heal from talents and from Azerite powers. Not too shabby after all. There’s probably more skills that I could have used during one-on-one face-offs with rare mobs, but I guess that’s okay. I’ll learn how to use them at some point, haha.

It’s just such a long journey to get flying in Zuldazar – so long that I’m feeling a little turned off by it. I’m just doing random quests by running around even after hitting max level. Haven’t feel tired of the game yet – will just continue with it since I already sub for 6 months lol.

Almost a year…

It was September 2019 when I last updated this blog.

Never found any motivation to update it ever since.

Went on a Hokkaido trip with my Mom and Bruno in Oct’2019, got delayed when coming back due to a typhoon, slept over at Narita Airport, and then chaos ensued after I came back – didn’t really have time to write anything at all.

Some stuff that had happened:-

  • I’ve ended things with Bruno. We are merely good friends now, and probably met up like once a month or something.
  • Covid-19 happened. Everyone knows about this, there’s nothing much to say. I’m just glad I have been wearing a mask on public transport since I came back from Japan last year. Not gonna change this habit any time soon.
  • Cancelled our Taiwan trip which was supposed to happen in March 2020. Was pretty sad about it but it was also a relief at the same time. It was kinda stressful to travel with my cousins…
  • Don’t foresee any travelling anytime soon due to 1) Oracle project at work; 2) well, Covid-19.
  • Singapore went into semi-lockdown mode called Circuit Breaker in end March, and lasted till 2nd June. We had to work from home for about 2 months – and it was during this time I got closer (slightly – on my end only I suppose) with Japheth, someone whom I’ve never even talk to when we were in office previously. I suppose I should thank IMOS?
  • Now I’m back in office everyday, even though the work that I’m doing can be done at home. Oh well.

Talking about Japheth… all I can say is he’s really a nice person. He isn’t good looking, but he has a very positive personality. I didn’t know I cared about him until one day while WFH, I heard his voice being very different over a video call. It was almost like he was soul-less, and sounded so tired. I still did not talk to him much at that time, but I decided to just send him a private message on Teams to see if he’s okay and if he’s tired. His simple reply: “Yeah, tired.”

I supposed he was totally bogged down by IMOS issues, and literally everyone in office was calling him and asking him to help with IMOS (well I was one of them). It was kinda alarming to hear that such a positive young man suddenly sounding so depressed. I immediately reached out to his lunch kaki whom I was on closer terms with to alert him about this, and told him to let Japheth’s manager know that he’s being overwhelmed. One thing led to another, and I think his manager did reached out to him to make sure he’s okay. A day later he sounded better – thank goodness.

Slowly though, I started to chat more with him and slowly opened up to him. He was a great person to talk to and to confide in, even though he doesn’t talk that much to me. So most of the time it was a one-way street haha. It’s awesome that he’s got a very cute girlfriend though – hope they’ll get married soon! They both look so cute together. =)

Got him a Tiramisu on his birthday last Thursday 2nd July. I don’t think he ended up eating it though… or maybe it wasn’t that nice. Didn’t hear any feedback from him… LOL.

Oh well, I suppose there’s just a limit of how friendly I should be. I’ve done my best and if he’s not interested in striking a friendship outside of work, then I guess I shall not insist.

Went for Restaurant Week lunch with Bruno yesterday at Wooloomooloo Steakhouse again. Impeccable service, lovely complimentary warm salty bread, perfectly done steak, and to-die-for bread and butter pudding as dessert. The meal was so good! Wish I had it with a romantic partner though. But at the rate things are going, and at how I deal with relationship issues… I suppose I’ll just be alone till the end of time. Which I am okay with. Just sometimes, I fantasize otherwise, you know? Heh…

I Am Alive

为什么我不知道JJ有跟Jason Mraz 合作过啊?! 好好听!

[Verse 1 : JJ]
When I fear the sky might fall;
And no one will hear my call
I take a breath and see;
I’ve all the strength I need

Days won’t be the same;
Everything will change
Even mountains over time;
Must get redefined

[Pre-Chorus : Jason, JJ]
I know, I know – life’s worth living
I Keep on, I keep on – giving
I’m giving it all I got; Giving it my best shot

I Get up, get up – and keep on trying;
There is no shame in crying
Yesterdays are gone;
I have what it takes I have what it takes– to Hold on!

[Chorus : Jason, JJ, Both]
I am brave and strong; I am every song
I am here to shine;
And I’m not afraid to fly

I am loveable; I am invincible
I am tough enough; And I’m ready to catch
The falling skyyyy…

[Bridge]
JJ :
I am alive

Jason :
I am alive

Both :
Yes I am

[Verse 2 : Jason]
The wind is in my face; and I’m feeling out of place
It’s me against the entire human race;
I know the dreams I chase
They will not be erased; They are my saving grace
I’m gonna make it

[Pre-Chorus : JJ, Jason, Both]
I know, I know – life’s worth living
I keep on, I keep on – giving
I’m giving it all I got; Giving it my best shot

I get up, get up – and keep on trying;
There is no shame in crying
Yesterdays are gone;
I have what it takes
I have what it takes – to hold on

[Chorus : Both, Jason, JJ]
I am brave and strong; I am every song
I am here to shine; I’m not afraid to fly
I am loveable; I am invincible
And I am tough enough; And I’m ready to catch
That falling sky

I am brave and strong; I am every song
I am here to shine; I’m not afraid to fly
I am loveable;
I’m invincible
And I am tough enough; And I’m ready to catch
The falling sky

[Outro]
JJ :
I am alive

Jason :
I am alive

Both :
I am alive

Jason :
Mmm…
I am alive

JJ :
I am alive
Yes I am

那些你很冒险的梦

那些你很冒险的梦
作词:王雅君
作曲:林俊杰

当两颗心开始震动
当你瞳孔学会闪躲
当爱慢慢被遮住只剩下黑
距离像影子被拉拖

当爱的故事剩听说
我找不到你单纯的面孔
当生命每分每秒都为你转动
心多执著就加倍心痛

那些你很冒险的梦 我陪你去疯
折纸飞机 碰到雨天 终究会坠落
太残忍的话我直说 因为爱很重
你却不想懂 只往反方向走

当爱的故事剩听说
我找不到你单纯的面孔
当生命每分每秒都为你转动
心有多执著就加倍心痛

那些你很冒险的梦 我陪你去疯
折纸飞机 碰到雨天 终究会坠落
太残忍的话我直说 因为爱很重
你却不想懂 只往反方向走

我不想放手 你松开的左手
你爱的放纵 我白不回天空
我输了 累了 当你再也不回头

那些你很冒险的梦 我陪你去疯
折纸飞机 碰到雨天 终究会坠落
太残忍的话我直说 因为爱很重
你却不想懂 只往反方向走
你真的不懂 我的爱已降落

#LetsGoLiquid

Although Team Liquid has come in only at the second place at TI9, they are still the only Dota2 team I will support, as long as Kuroky, Miracle, and GH are in the team. I’m not sure if there’ll be any changes in the next season, but #LetsGoLiquid!

不适合

好累。

三年了。一直以为可以这样下去,但是我爸爸过世后,我看清了。

我们不适合。

你,明明来过我家好几次,看过我爸妈好几次。可是在我爸爸葬礼,你只待了五分钟就离开了。

我跟你当时算是比好朋友还好的阶段了,我们都已经说好即使不结婚,也是一辈子的伴了。

连我的同事都能待个三十分钟。你却。。。

从那天起,我心凉了。

三年,这三年都是我在照顾你,去哪里都好像我是姐姐似的,我安排,我决定,我带路, 我照顾。你什么都不管,只负责问 “我们去哪儿?” 其余的都是在等我策划。我们从不牵手,因为你怕被你父母亲戚朋友看到。原来我之前的猜测是对的。你只喜欢“在一起”的感觉,你要的只是那“暧昧”的感觉。你不懂得付出,只是一味的接受我对你的关怀和照顾。

是,我是一个独立的女生。但是我终究是个女生。我有时也会需要一个肩膀给我靠,需要一个人在我无助的时候帮我做决定。而这三年让我发现,你,不是那个人。

既然不是,那就不用浪费彼此的时间了吧。做个朋友,可以。不过,朋友不需要每个星期都见面吧。我真的不想那么频密的见你了。我宁愿花心思和时间在我妈和我自己身上。

这十月的北海道之旅,既然早已订了飞机票,那就算了。幸好这次我妈也跟着来。从北海道回来后,我真的,真的,不想再见到你了。你去找别人跟你暧昧吧。我没精力,也没空。

好累。